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Well, I've been sleeping in for the past few days, ever since we got back from Wisconson. Road trips like that always exaust me. But at the same time I'm really into trying to change my life. I'm tired of being the person I am, just wishing I was the person I know I can be.
I've applied for a job, heres hoping I get it. I want a job that has at least a bit of walking around to be done. I don't want to be stuck behind a desk all day. sad I'm also really tired of watching my brother freeload. I know that once I get a job I'll be just helping him slack by helping my mom pay the bills...but at the same time I know its very hard on her to do it alone. Thats why I want to help...and have a bit of extra money on the side so I can buy things I need, and want of course. 3nodding

I guess I'm blowing off a bit of steam...I'm just tired of always picking up his slack. Running to the store caus he won't go by himself, or taking the dogs out on walks, one at a time because I can't handle them both at once.
I just really don't want to make it easier for him.

This week I've kind of edged off my diet, other than breakfast, which has pretty much stayed the same. So today I'm starting back up, by keeping tabs on everythign I eat. Which is pretty helpful, and shows me i'm not eating as much as I thought I was. hooray. But now I just gotta get back into the exercise thing, and build on it. So far I'm just walking and its kind of crappy caus I don't feel like it's doing much good, but it is giving me much more energy. Which is great.

Anyway...back to fixing dinner. sweatdrop