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this is something i just wrote in science class,which is my isolated and loneliest class,which probably gave spawn to this writing.....

MYSELF by Reggie/Xeno

"Your still young...","You have your whole life ahead of you..." far too many have i heard these lectures...words...advice. I learned to apply them to life...they have aided me so and yet....only pushed me so far. Only a year till I am an adult..am i ready?

My emotions are my curse.....and my blessing. My compassionate,caring,loving side...has gained me many companions...but it has also pushed some away. My emotions dark,apathetic,wrathful side....has pushed away my loved ones and angered them...but it had sped up the death of my being. I fear i may lose myself sooner then I anticipated...but I have resolved to have no assitance for i no longer require it...

I question myself daily...why am i so stupid?Why do i continue to push people away?Why wont i change? Why am i so unattractive?Why cant i just have someone keep me warm...?Am I destined to be alone...? When will I cease to feel so dead...?

But for now...wallow in the cesspool of despair....lose those you love because of your anger and hatred....never have someone to love and hold ever again....the words i hear in my head ever night...and ever morning.....

My soul shall silence and my heart shall never return....Daikirai and Zetsumei....


MY sin and my reward