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What is your name? Rachel Eva
Are you named after anyone? my middle name has been a tradition i n my family for generations
What's your screename? TheAngelicUpstarts
Would you name a child of yours after you? Ew. No.
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be: probably Steven
Would you drop your last name if you became famous? i'd love any excuse to drop it.

Basics
Your gender: female
Straight/Gay/Bi: Straight.
Single? .... not really. nothing's official...or...i don't think it is.... uhm sweatdrop anyways, I'm unavailable
Age you act: between ages 7-50, it depends when you catch me
Age you wish you were: four. I'd be so cool if I was four.
Your living arrangement: With my parents.
Your family: Mom Dad brother, one dog, one cat, two romanian devils
Obsessions? Mythology, Anime, Art, Poetry,Gaia
Addictions? see above. oh, and Thai food and ice cream
Do you speak another language? french, a tiny bit of a few eastern european languages but i couldn't hold up a conversation
Do you live in the moment? sometimes
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? If they are tolerant of me and those I love
Do you have any secrets? of course
Do you hate yourself? not really, no
Do you like your handwriting? yes. it's terrible, but it suits me
Do you have any bad habits? procrastinating, getting doubtful, randomly dying my hair.
What is the compliment you get from most people? That I have excellent taste/dress well
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? -laughs- Missing Angel Juan. Something Francesca Lia Block-ish

Shtuff
What's your biggest fear? burns, people pretending to like me when they don't and abandonement
Can you sing? I've been told
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? once I dressed up like a ninja
Are you a loner? Oh yes. I hate people. go away, people!
What are your #1 priorities in life? To make those i love happy and find my place in the world. ( nina bruja: What time is it upon? Where do i belong?)
If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Yes, but i wouldn't take any of my s**t
Are you a daredevil? always
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? My fear of change, lack of conviction
Are you passive or agressive: Passive
What is your greatest strength and weakness? i'm very intuitive. but i overthink muchly
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? everyone knows i'd change how i look
Do you think you are emotionally strong? supposedly
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? I regret being stupid.
Do you think life has been good so far? i've never gone without
What is the most important thin you've learned so far? That you can't hold others to the stabndards you hold yourself or you'll just be disappointed and depressed. When you expect nothing from anyone, everything is an unexpected joy.
What do you like the most about your body? -laughs- uhhh...
And least? i got pounds to lose!
Do you think you are good looking? La la la LINOLEUM
Are you confident? sometimes
What is the fictional character you are most like? ... i change every single day. I'd say I was a mix of Ariel from the little mermaid, Sylvia from the two gentlemen of verona, Witch Baby from dangerous Angels- I'm a different person to everyone. I am Marantha's queen Mab and she is my Barbie, I am Chelsea's Shary and she is my Lapis, I am Brendan's Weetzie and he is my Dirk. Today, I am Liadan waiting for my Bran.
Are you perceived wrongly? often. It worries me sometimes

Do You...
Smoke? Once
Do drugs? no
Read the newspaper? Yes, sometimes. I prefer fiction to reality, it's prettier.
Pray? no
Sleep with stuffed animals? when i remember to!
Take walks in the rain? -nods- If i'm in the mood.
Talk to people even though you hate them? Yes. I'm always trying to change my opinion of people I dislike, but sometimes I just can't stand someone stressed
Drive? -shakes head- I don't want to, it's a pollutant and buses get me everywhere
Like to drive fast? -laughs- yes

Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice? mhm sometimes
Hurt yourself? yes
Been out of the country? uh- US( tons of different states), mexico, britain, france, spain, germany, hungary, romania, i think is all
Eaten something that made other people sick? i think so
Had surgery? -nods- a bit
Gotten beaten up? i beat up christian all the time 'cause he calls me short
Beaten someone up? no
Been picked on? DON'T CALL ME SHORT DAMNIT
Been on stage? -nods- i love it. acting, debating, singing.
Slept outdoors? yes. whee
Thought about suicide? Yes
Pulled an all nighter? Yes
Slept all day? Yes when we got home from romania I hadn't slept in something like 34 hours it was eerie what it did to me
Killed someone? no
Made out with a stranger? ... no
Had sex with a stranger? No
Thought you're going crazy? Yes
Kissed the same sex? i've gotten sexually assaulted by them while being restrained, that wasn't very much fun eek
Had a dream that came true? Only day dreams
Broken the law? of course
Met a famous person? semi-famous. Ooh, I get to meet Stephen lewis on Saturday I'm so exciiiited!
Been in a mosh-pit!
Had a dream that kept coming back? Yes kinda

Beliefs
Believe in life on other planets? we can't be the only planet with life, it
s impossible
Miracles? ... not really.
Astrology? maybe
Magic? i dunno if it's belief or really wishful thinking
God? uh......
Satan? -laughs-
Santa? for sure!
Ghosts? Uhm!
Love at first sight? it's happened
Witches? naturally
Easter bunny? no, parents tell you to behave so the easter bunny doesn't come and dip you in chocolate and fill you with nougat
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever? Yes but we weren't desgined for it
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?there isn't one
Do you wish on stars?I wish on everything

Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? no, heaven is what you make of it
Do you think God has a gender? i see it as a male but that's been banged into my head since i was little by the media
Do you believe in organized religion? no, it;s full of corruption and impossible to define everyone's persona relationshipwith a higher being
Where do you think we go when we die? six feet under.

Friends
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? ... i don't know.
Who listens to your problems? Joseph heart
Who do you fight most with? my mother, regrettably
Who's the nicest? uhm- Chelsea, because she's not sickeningly nice, she has genuine good intentions and has only ever wanted to see me happy
Who's the most outgoing?kristen
Who's the best singer? ever? out of my friends? I hardly ever hear my friend sing. And even when they do, the music's so loud i can't hear them- no, no wait. Brenden has a positively enchanting voice. I had the hugest crush on him the first time I heard him sing.
Who's on your s**t-list?: That horrible so-and-so who is mean to me and fia because she's immensely threatened.
Who's your second family? christian and zeff
Do you always feel understood? -smiles- sometimes. No two people can ever fully understand everything about each other, of course
Do you trust others easily? I'm a first impressions kinda girl. Love all, trust few, do harm to none.
Do your friends know you? some of them! Any all of them know how I'm feeling all the time unless I want to hide it
Friend that lives farthest away: Anna or Gonzalo. -sigh- I miss both of them so so much.

Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake? Sometimes. Not currently.
What do you find romantic? -laughs- I'll admit it- elaborate romantic gestures. Throwing caution to the wind, emotion taking over, losing control and being just overcome by love
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them? sometimes. People are always, always trying to set me up with someone. Always. Alllllllways.
Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out? I think it is morally acceptable. I don't give a damn what society thinks, I'm painfully shy and unable to make any moved not because of society, because of myself.
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? -laughs- Yes. Everyone told me Timothy looked like a troll -laughs- anyways, he ended up acting like a troll in the end, didn't he?
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? I am not the judge of that, but i guess I hope so.
What's the last present someone gave you? Spurs ^_^. Kyeong gave me lots of paperwork a few hours ago but that's not a gift.


Right This Moment...
Are you going out? No, I;m going to bed
What are you wearing right now? a pinstriped night dress and legwarmers
Body part you're touching right now? uh... wel my chin s resting on my hand.... if that's what you mean
What are you worried about right now? work and everything i have to do
What book are you reading? a stupid flighty little novel to placate me
What's on your mousepad? don't have one, this is a laptop.
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: tired dizzy warm overwhelmed sore