Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

B is so smart.. hes just about the smartest guy i know... and i hope he knows it. Were just friends but.. we still click. A part of me want us to be more... but another part of me just wants to be friends. Either way though, i still hope he can help me with my school work xd
Hes cheery all the time, hes always smiling.. except for when i talk about M in front of him.. Thats why o dont want to be with him.. because i make him frown.. i think i make him sad.
Hes such an amazing talented person.. so easy to talk to and fun to be around.. even if its just sorta an awkward silence between us.. i'm still at ease. Mabey its better that we stay friends.. it will be easier to say goodbye in the end that way...
((anyone readin this probobly thinks its pretty obvious who it is.. >.< stupid little me))
but recently i asked him to take me to our school formal.. i'm starting to think that it was a bad idea.... i think that, if i ended up having to much fun with B i would forget about M.. and i would do somthing i shouldnt ( not in a sort of sexual manner). When i see B i just want to hugg him. But when i talk to M or think of M i just want to kiss him.. i want to hold him forever and le everything fade away. But with B.. i jst want to hugg him.. i havnt thought of anything more( well.... that i wish to share here anyways.. every gril has her fantasys xp ) so i guess it mean.. its not love, but mearly an very hard crush... one thats lasted since the first time i meet him.