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I'm going to take a few moments to post something that doesn't come from a magazine about heavy metal, but rather from my own thoughts. If nobody reads it, that won't bother me in the least.

This summer is coming to an end. I'll be starting school in a week. And thank God. This summer, my life has fallen apart for the most part.
First, my friends are no longer my friends. One lost his social life when I introduced him to Gaia. Another turned out to be a lying a*****e. The third thinks that I'm a heartless d**k. And the fourth turned to witchcraft, ignoring my pleas and those of my only friend, Ryan.

Second, I started to fall in love. Yes, I know, this is usually a good thing. But for me, it wasn't such a great experience. I told the girl exactly how I felt. I poured out my heart to her. But I was about a month too late. She already had someone, another girl. Yes, I fell in love with a bisexual. I got to meet the other girl. That was even more of an emotional b***h slap. I felt like s**t. But I've come to the decision that I have a good chance at finding someone for me. I offer commitment. That's what sets me apart from most other males. I will only begin a relationship that I think will last. I don't look for spur of the moment gratification through a kiss, an embrace, or sexual relations. I look for, and offer, a lasting relationship. But that's enough ranting.