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Poor Unfortunate Soul? Thats Me..
i've finally come to the realization that there is something wrong with me; there is something truely wrong with me. i mean i knew something was off before but its more than that. my drepression has taken a serious trun for the worse and i just can't seem to be happy anymore. every single ******** smile i spit out is fake. every single one of them! i can't find something to make me happy... i mean there are certain people but... i dont wanna go into that. for the past few days i've had an EXTREME urge to cut myself but i promised i wouldn't cut anymore. i never break my promises, but right now i honestly feel like i NEED too! then today, out of no where, i just wanted to die. everything aboiut myself was making me sick., i kinda felt like i was suffocating to death and there was nothing i could do about it. my whole body started to ache everywhere and there was this neusiating feeling in the pit of my stomach. i feel it all a little bit even now and i can't shake the urge to kill myself. i know no one is even going to read this so... blah. but if someone does, please leave a comment. it'll make me feel better to know someone cared enouh to read this and say something back to me. hopefully this will go away, cuz i know im not a strong enough person to resist cutting or suicide for much longer.... i hope everyone else feels a billion times better than me.
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