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Man...

I was raised a certain way,you know.

1. Never pick your nose.
2. Strangers are automatically out to get you...But be nice in any case before running like heck.
3. Quit feeding the dogs cheese.
4. Singing out of your range creates nodes.
5. Don't go to the river by yourself.
6. Always keep an open mind.
7. Don't cuss at people-Use bigger more important words to make the person feel even worse.
8. Smiles make EVERYTHING better. And Laughing is wonder medicine.
and 9: Respect=Life. And vice-versa.

Have a troublesome guy in the classroom?? Respect him.His space. Humor his jokes. A smart,shy girl?Respect her, as you would the teacher.

Stranger?? Respect him. Jerk?? Respect his ballsiness.Anyone other than you?? Treat them as you would treat yourself-Or even better,really. Humour them,tease them,laugh with them,latch on to them-Respect them,their space,their opinion...

Consider the shoes they walk in before considering your own.

Treat everyone with some sort of sense of dignity.Even a smidge.

Unless they're total bums,give them a slight benefit of the doubt.

I grew up curtsying to people and shaking hands and smiling at lame jokes and analyzing people and how much respect I should give them.Analyze the person,understand them,and respect them for who they are.

When I was mad at someone?? I took a deep breath and tried to figure them out Maybe thats how I got to be so empathetic. And why I ask people so many questions.

Meanwhile, at home,my provacy was respected...I would get so confused when my friends from school explained to me that their paretns went through they're backpacks.

'WHAT!?' I would say,' That's...That's not any of their business!!!Don't they TRUST you!?'
'No,they go through it when they think im not looking,looking for anything to pin on me.'

I was so disgusted with the thought.

When I got in an argument,(unless it was with my siblings. Then I was always shortsheeted.)my parents would listen to eveything I had to say,analze it,and come up with the perfect solution. Not always pefect for me,but perfectly fair. And that was nice.

I was always given a perfectly reasonable conlusion to everything.

My space was respected. As were my opinions...I could always say what I thought(Unless I was in trouble. Then I didn't even open my mouth.)I could believe in what I wanted, I was trusted....

In short,I grew up with the thought that the Parent always gave their child the benefit of the doubt,unless in extreme circumstances. And I saw those circumstances and stayed away from them.

It was SO....NICE....

Then one day,im not sure when,that all evaporated.

What happened to respect,guys?? Why...Is Jason's dad relishing in the fact that Jason screwed up on something small?? Honest to God,why is he so damn exubriated about making Jason's life MISERABLE??

Not just Jason...but so many other people. I'm finding myself caught in it too. Teachers that hate their jobs and take it out of students...Parents who think they love booze or smokes more than their family... Parents who LIVE....Freaking LIVE to smash children under their thumb??

Why are my eyes watering,you guys??Where did my view of the world go??When does a parent....LIVE to drink toxin and just ******** LIVE to make they're life's blood MISERABLE!?

Excuse any spelling errors....My head is swimming in all of this second-hand-chain smoke. Seriously,I feel like passing out. Maybe that's why im so emotional about this. Or maybe it's because Jason's dad just called huim back home,sounding delighted at the fact that Jason's noe in trouble to no reason??

DAMN,my head hurts....

Where did it go,you guys??....Where can I find it again??


This really SUCKS....when you're never respected...

What happend to promises of quitting smokeing,loongloong ago??Jeez.....

I'm used to it, of course-Growing up by those rules,I was never properly given them back unless it was close friends or family.And God,how I miss that.Just those few people make all the differnece.

But those eople are replaced by new ones,ans it's just not the same.

OI asked Jason what happened to it,before he left.
I said-

'Jace, what happened to the respect in the world??Where did the courtesy go??'

Herreplied quietly,'Unfortunately,I don't think it ever existed in the first place.But the idea is a nice one.' And he left to get yelled,screamed and jabbed at.

Im so damn pissed...

And I'm ready to pass out from all this haze,you guys. This really SUCKS.

Forgive the ranting,but this is the first porer one Ivme had in a while.

Gawd,I can't breathe.....It was so nice,honeslt,yhorribly,havbing the parents gone that week...the air was refreshed in the house..I was used to having clean air again...This is hitting me lke a sack of bricks.

I thinkI was feel my braincells dying,not cool.

Not exaggerating either. Imm probably going to read this later and not remeber it,thinking I was on crack or sumthing. I could also go back through and spell check everything so it makes sense,but I don't want to sta in here more than I want to.

Funny funny.And god,my head hurts.And now the cougings starting.

Where can I go to espcae it??Outside.Where the grinning,infected moon like a polished bone lurks behind the trese just to scare the s**t outta me.

All I can say,thos,it sathI;m going to keep on trying to give respect.Im bervr going to give it up,because I know that in some people,Imt means a lot.I now it mean a lot to me. Its a prat of me now...and my children will gfrw up the same way...Maybe it;; make a fidderence somewhere down the line.

Forigve the seriousness,dudes.I juat havd to rant a while And now I need to go pass out.

Word to your tmohers.