Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

TEARS...

I can't help but let another tear roll...
No matter how unreasonable I am,
How pathetic I am...
I still have feelings.
And I feel really pathetic and depressed.
And I try to find someone to talk to...

But they're in their own world.
I know I shouldn't disturb them..
So I ask them if they're busy.
If they say 'kinda' obviously they're busy
If they say 'nope' it's probably that they are,
But say no anyway.

See. I'm totally being unreasonable.
But thats the way I think.
So I keep it to myself
And another day passes
And the sadness builds in my heart...

-sigh-
I'm pathetic aren't I?
And so, I turn to carmen.
Whose computer is lagging.
I don't think she'll ever read this.
Well, not for a looonnng looonnng time...

I feel like talking to her but...
What do I say?
'I feel sad.'
I'm just so confused at the moment.

I hate these sad emotions, it makes me confused.
I can't think properly in this state.