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TEARS...

21st October

It's been a while since I've been updating...
I've made a new tabula which I can blog in...
Except, I don't want to.
Gaia seems to make me have a warm happy feeling.

I REALLY need to focus on my studies.
Everyone else seems to be studying and such.
So focused and I'm just playing around...
-sigh- I'm pathetic.

I feel like I'm annoying people you know?
Like my past... everything I say,
Everything I do... I just annoy them.
I say something I get '>>" yes, whatever'

I feel like ignoring people...
so I can be like before.
Alone and carefree.

-sigh-

On top of that, I don't know how I should treat her.
Perhaps I should stop listening to my heart
And listen to my head...

For example, if she stumbles or gets hurt...
I just panic. And I just feel so helpless.
I don't know what to do.
Maybe I'm to worry about her...
But I might be being to overprotective.
Maybe I should just let her be...
But she might think I'm not caring.
Nevertheless, I still care and worry.

Wait. What am I talking about?
I'm so confused...
Oh no... not these weird feelings again.
-sigh-
I'll talk to you later then.