I've come to realize that I've gotten very bad traits from both my parents.
From my dad, I've gotten the whole jealousy/bitterness/bottled-up feelings/childish pouting thing;
From my mom, the never-ending pursuit of the hopeless, and the perpetual mental instability under stress.
Interestingly enough, someone else gave me the running away thing.
It's no wonder she doesn't like me the way I like her :[
Edit: I've given up, by the way. Even perfect [she] isn't worth the agony I put myself through to attain happiness. I shalln't be admitting the slightest feeling towards her anymore -- I shall be taking my heart back, and hoping I can one day give it to someone new. I've been giving myself time to think, so I used my angry time to move into a thoughtful time, and haven't spoken to her in the past couple days in order to reflect.
Strange predicament I find myself in, however. The only people I am around when not at home are either students or people twice or more my age. I have to find some kind of outing if I am to ever find someone.
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It's not what it looks like, I swear.
And that just what you know
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