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i called my fiancee today, just to say good morning and to see if she was alright. last night she wasn't feeling "happy". so i called her this morning, and she tells me that she needs some time to think about some stuff and does not want me to talk to her, call her, or even visit her. im scared, im scared that she is going to leave me. the last time i gave her space and time to think. she hurt me very badly and very deep. and now she wants me, to step back again. all i can think about is calling her. wanting to be there for her like she has been for me in the past. wanting to talk to her, hold her, kiss her, make her laugh, make her smile. she means the world to me. she is my world. and if my world doesn't want me there, then why am i living. why am i here if not to make her happy. crying crying crying i love her so much. crying crying crying and i can't imagine living on without her. crying crying crying i love you so much Sarah. why do you keep pushing me away, when i want to be close to you?