Hold on Tight I'm gunna spin you round' Follow this lead or you'll get left behind Nothing left for you in this life Why don't we just show you why
there once was a boy who loved this girl She left him dry and then the world went down he never knew why she did it all, but he couldn't stop her, no he couldn't stop
she wrote him that she loved him so, he left his heart into her soul He gave up life just to see her live, gave up love just to see her live
*(Mood Change)*
We never saw what we were looking for, we only knew we needed each other. Their were no other.. Under the moon light sky he held her, counting her breaths and holding onto her He knew it would end someday and he couldn't stop it, no he wouldn't stop it She saw him as her savior and soul, stood by this girl as if she were his god
His faith never faltered in the love they shared, neither did the girls till she got new friends under the new horizon The boy would wait by his phone for her, never knew what she was going to do Desperately waiting to hear her voice, only to be held by its poison.
We never saw what we were looking for, we only knew we needed each other. She was like no other. Warm glow of the t.v. was on, only small whispers could be heard from the bed He held her in his arms counting her breaths, holding onto her as he knew this would end He wouldn't stop it, He couldn't stop it...
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ I would love for her to see this, I don't know why she impacted my life so much to be brutally honest with all of you. I think I'm going to send her a PM asking her to read my journal. I probably shouldn't but I just need to let her know that I can't get her out of my head and I want us to go back to just friends.
I gave up my guitar for lent but I couldn't help it. I was laying in my bed and I just couldn't get over this insationable sadness that had enveloped me. I picked up the guitar and just started playing whatever I could and I came up with this rhythm and chords (along with a vocal solo and guitar solo) and just let out all of my sadness. I sung those words as I played the song, I had no thought, I wasn't putting any effort into it. Everything just came to me at once while I was playing. I could hear it in my head and I could visualize all those nights I stayed up thinking about her. I couldn't get the thought of both of us laying there holding each other and falling asleep in the living room as the soft glow of the t.v. illuminating that house. I don't know why I have the urge to write these things or why I have these thoughts. Call it a release because I'm sick of holding it in. I told Ashton how I felt and I couldn't stop thinking about the pain whenever I talked to her and now she's angry with me. I didn't tell her that talking to her reminded of the times that she would hold stuff above me that she knew that I didn't.
I keep telling myself I'm over you but I guess the past hasn't left my memory. Every time I hug someone I don't get that warmness I did when you hugged me and held me in your arms.
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Spent the night with sean and his girlfriend after going to the movies with Rebekah. Basically spent the night with a bunch of college guys and seans girlfriend as we all played halo and wii. Me and sean re-connected after getting out of touch and it was nice to have a friend in my life again where I knew I could trust him. They are set on introducing me to this sophomore Elizabeth that they say she'll fall in love with me. There are dead set that I'm depressed and need a girl to get my mind off of the world and I think they might be right but I'm not going to go for just anyone, I've waited long enough I can do it for a little longer.
I'm going to send her a message then go fix my avatar so good night world, Turn off those lights and adjust your radio because the fast track just closed down.
~sleep well, sleep well~ ~you have stolen my heart~
Dameon the -V- · Sun Feb 10, 2008 @ 05:12am · 1 Comments |