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I always thought that maybe, this world would change one day. I thought that maybe it would become more clear, but instead it just became more foggy. Its like the mist has settled over my life. I dont really know where Im going, or where I have actaully been. Everything is a complete blur. I walk out into the darkness where I think Im wanted, and just fall. Never really thought that I would make it this far, never thought that I could make it this far. I feel different somehow, I feel like I dont really, truley belong. Maybe....maybe all these years I've just had my eyes closed, maybe I need to open them. I can feel it, I can feel the light trying to break through, but it seems as though, it has given up too. It seems as though I am never truley to find that light, I am ment to fall untill I can fall no more. Maybe, I am different, or maybe its just that I am tricking myself into believing things that arent entirly true. I always thought that this world was too good to be true, that there was some kind of catch. Nothing ever really seemed real, like some kind of weird fantasy. People say appreciate the life you have....because you only have one chance. Well, what if that is true, what if you only have one life, one chance to make everything perfect before you pass on? If that is infact true then how do we make this life the best it can be? Do we just live with all the suffering and pain in this world, or should we help........I keep falling, but it seems as though I cant fall anymore.....This world is a very confusing place. Its like a maze, one wrong move, one wrong turn, and you could be lost forever. Never to find the way out. Can we really escape this world that we live in? Can we find a back door to life and leave? So many questions....so many answers. So little time.......Finally the falling stops, and everything becomes clear......nothing is as blury as before.....I see a door, and think that maybe just maybe that is the back door i was talking about.....maybe its my turn to finally escape this world......But, am I truley ment to escape from everything.....am I that lucky? I go to open it, but it fades away. I realize that no one is truley ment to escape, this world is our prison, and it seems we are never destined to be free.....I close my eyes and just walk. I walk untill something happens, everything changes. When I open them I am back in class....it seems as though I had just fallen asleep. I look out the window and think about what i had just "drempt" about. I whisper quietly to myself, "a dream? Is all of this a dream? Maybe so, if it is, then I am the dreamer......."