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I wanted to scream, scream that everything was going wrong, that my life was ruined, over! But I knew i woudlnt say this to you, I never would because i would never want to see you crying for me. I never wanted to see you worry for me. Now that I look back, I wish i would have told you, though I know it would have done no good. I just wish that once, you would have forced me to tell you what was wrong. You wouldnt of just let me walk away, no matter how much pain I was in. Just once, I wish you would have looked into my eyes and forced me to cry a little, then tell you the truth for once. I always said to you that I was fine, I always smiled for you. But everytime you look into my eyes, I have to look away to stop from crying. I want you to know, but I am afraid to tell you. I wont admit it, you have to force me to tell you. To explain whats wrong. Nomatter how many times I said I was ok, all I wanted was for someone to look into my eyes and say, "Your lying." For that would be the truth. Everytime I said to you that I was ok, I was lying. As you walked away, I started to cry. Everytime...If only you knew what was wrong, if only you would have forced it out of me, what would you have done, what would you have said to me? All I want in this life, is for someone to honistly look into my eyes, and say to me that Im lying and that they wont walk away or leave me alone till I tell them the truth. All I want is for someone that I can talk to and explain things to. All I want is for you to ask..

~You asked if there was something I wanted to tell you. I slowly shook my head and you smiled then walked away. When I couldnt see you anymore, I let out a sigh, then smiled a little myself. I turned away, shook my head and then as my smile faded I said under my breath, "If only you knew, what would you say..?"~
~To a person that means the world to me but is a complete stranger~