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I hated seeing him today.
Went to art and couldn't have drawn a decent figure to save my life.
My skills were all messed up.
Couldn't think.
It was weird.
I'd see the model...
Put the chalk on the paper...
But, it wasn't good.
And every time I messed something up.
I thought of him.
And how it was HIS fault.
Well, of course it's not...
My ability to figure draw has nothing to do with him.
But now...
Somehow, seeing him made it better.
No, I didn't talk to him.
Tried to deal with the internet on my phone to talk to someone else =P
But, I was so angry I was shaking when he was there.
And even into art.
But... my art teacher's gotta be psychic or something...
She gave us a little speech about anger and the like.
Made me feel better...
Then when talking to specifically to the advanced students (that's me and four other people) she said: "If you're upset with your work, or upset in general, draw with your left [non dominant] hand. Makes all those feelings disappear."
It worked.
It was amazing.
I think I was the only one who tried it... but...
Still!
So, I can't really stay mad at him.
I'll try "drawing with my left hand" and talk to him in a totally different way.
Could work, hope it does.
It worked with my initial anger (when I did it physically).
So, let's see if it'll work metaphorically.