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Okay... two things.
First = go to England.
I need the money.
I need the permission.
It's so freakin' difficult.
But would be so worth it.
I just don't think I could get past my parents =/
"Mom, dad, I want to go to England to meet a girl I know online, can I?"
I don't think that'd work -_-
Unfortunately =[
Then again, they probably wouldn't make it past the word "girlfriend"
That is if I chose to use it.

Second thing...
Make this stupid hole go away.
It's back.
I knew it would come back.
It's 'cause of him, again.
I want so badly just to say something, but I CAN'T.
It's not that easy.
I don't know what he's thinking about me.
Is he mad?
Doubt it.
Doubting if he even cares about me.
Why should he?
I'm not going to say I don't care about him.
I do.
That's what's causing the problem.
If I could care less, I wouldn't feel all hurt like.
I'm afraid of what confronting will do to him.
Because I don't know.
His Myspace only describes emotional instability where he picks up a razor every time someone looks at him sideways, then spends hours "fighting the urge"
Is he exaggerating?
I think so, yes.
But, I don't know so.
So, I don't know what to do.
Anyone reading this have any idea?