I think i've become obsessed. For the past week i feel like i've been walking in a trance. I love being in my own world.. Nobody can look into my head and that's the way it should stay. I've spent every hour i can just plugged into my iPod and my head into a book, entering another world and letting the pages swallow me. It's a nice feeling... A distracting one and even when I'm not reading and I'm at school i wonder what'll happen next when i get home and become dead to the real world. I think i've read 3 books in one week - Now that's a record for me. They're not thin books either. The first one had 282 pages but really small writing, the second had 434 and that one i finished in two days, i just refused to put it down. The third has 563 pages and is a sequel to the second book i read. Listening to the music helps too, it makes me deaf to all the noises around me. The main band i listen to is Linkin Park though. I've only got two of their album [Meteora & Hybrid Theory] but that's enough for me. I love all the songs, which is rare for me whenever i buy and album [There's always one!].
Some people want to know why i read so much, but i guess if i tell them the real reason they'd think i was suicidal or mad or something stupid like that. But i guess it's true, It's my only way out of this world without harming or hurting myself with drugs or knives. I'd never have the guts.
It also distracts me from the truth. I hate the truth. But that doesn't mean I'm a lier, i despise those people who lie. When i say i hate the Truth i mean that if it suddenly ran out in front of me waving and smiling then i'd either pull two guns out and start shooting the damn thing or go and hide behind a prickly bush. It has to be prickly because knowing my luck it'll be the only bush available to hide in. I can face anything but the Truth..
It almost makes me feel ashamed to think that, but It's just my immediate reaction when... "danger" comes near.
I just... Hide.
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