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Yesterday I went to visit Bowie fan, because I hurt bad and didn't think I should be alone. We were walking to IHOP and discussing bad grammar when out of nowhere a car pulls up behind us. My first thought was "If that is Ron, Im kicking his teeth in..." but I get a look at the car and almost immediatly start crying. It was Miles and his parents. I walked over and apologized for something and then I went to hug Miles, but I felt awkward trying so hard not to cry. Then they drove away and Bowie fan and I sat down. I needed to calm down and talk about anything else but what I was afraid of. In the middle of our talk, Bowie fan goes "Mi-chan" and I was confused but I looked up just in time to see his parents car drive away and him walking towards me.

We talked about stuff, like me going back to my therapist, because I shouldn't have stopped going in the first place. So, we just have to wait a bit and things will fall back into normal soon. We hung out all day, watching a movie after melting out in the sun on the walk back. It did alot to ease the empty feeling in my stomach. Theres still a small feeling, but its not so bad.

I don't work with Mi chan any more. I think its for the best. I had only wanted a part time job to begin with. One I didn't have to think too much about. I just wanted a simple job to earn some money and wait for Mi-chan to be off work. Since what I was doing was none of that, I couldnt take it serious and I couldnt focus on what I was doing, becuase the whole time I just wanted to cuddle Mi chan. I have yet to say it to his parents, but thats because I havent seen them at a time where Im not about to break into tears.

Anyway, point being, Im feeling much better about things now. Mi chan says he is too.

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