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"Alright...Uhh..." I was trying to think of how to describe things to Chi. She'd only bugged me forever to tell her about my days in the human relm, and now I couldn't think of how to describe things to her.

Sure, Ukitake and Amaya took here there when ever they could, but it would never be enough for her to see EVERYTHING. Heck, I didn't even see anything outside of my home country. I let her start asking the questions, so far, it was little things, What was my favorite Candy there was probably her favorite question so far. She LOVED human world candy. And she always got some when she went.

Now we were on the subject of games. She'd asked me what my favorite game was. Kickball. I loved kickball when I was a human. "What is Kickball, Rizzy?" Chi asked. Soul Society didn't have ALOT of things we did in the human relm. This was going to be hard.

And that was where I was stuttering like a fish outta water. I sighed finally. "Its really hard to explain." I said, trying to get her to understand what it was. "Alright. Close your eyes, I'm gonna get you to picture this." I said as she nodded, closing her bright red eyes.

"Picture a big square." I started, "But like a diamond shape, so a square on it side." She was silent. "There were bases, and a mound twords the middle. Someone would throw a ball on the ground, and another person, would kick it as hard as they could, and try to get around the bases without getting hit with the ball." I said, tho I was getting caught up just thinking about it.

"Why'd they kick it..?" Chi asked, her eyes popping open again to look at me. I chuckled. "That was the game. Kickball." She still didn't seem to get it. "Ah, its alright, Chi. Maybe some day, we can get a bunch of us to all play a game of kickball." I said with a smile.

Maybe that could help me get my dreams to leave me alone...

"Rizado.." Chi pulled at my sleeve as I looked over to her. "Do you miss the human relm?" She asked. I stared at her for a moment, then nodded. "Yeah. I do.." But I wouldn't tell her how much I missed it. In reality, I missed being there more than anything.

I wish I hadn't have died...

Chi didn't understand fully what an Arrencar was, so I was thankful I wouldn't have to tell her all about dying and becoming a hollow...Just thinking about it made me nervous. She didn't ask any more then. Maybe she'd seen the longing in my stare, I'd hoped not.
Sure, I liked it here living in the 13th squad quarters, and helping out the Shinigami, hoping to give myself a good name despite what I became.

I looked at the sky through the reeds around us, the sun was high, and I could hear the cicada's chirping loudly in the heat of the afternoon. Chi had taken to picking at my hair like she always did. She loved the curls, even if I didn't.
I was lost in thought altho, thinking back to my life back in the human world. My friends. My mother. My school. My pets.

My death most of all although.....