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KC's Journal of nonsense...
My journal will describe funny and stupid things that happened to me.
Yes, again...
I'm going to depress like I always do. "It's not my fault if I'm like this! gonk " I always say, but sincerely it is. I guess that I like to feel miserable, isn't that just pathetic? surprised I'm ******** off, I always have been. My childhood was simple and nice, that's what people would say if I told them about it. But there's much more than that. What is it? I can't tell you because I don't want to. My friends say that I'm trustworthy so they tell me so many things that I'm sure they don't even remember. lol While I, on the other hand is not able to trust any of them with my secrets. Why, you ask? I'm not really sure, but I think that it's because they won't understand me and they'll laugh at me. Sure lots of people laugh at me because I'm clumsy and all, but I hate it when they laugh at me when I'm being serious. Sometimes, people tell me something even if it's a little word that's kinda mean but they meant it in a funny way. Well, that truly hurts me. That's why I get sad and start brooding. I don't think that I can live a day without brooding and complaining. sweatdrop Sorry if it annoys everyone, if you want to be with me then live with it. mad My mother freaked out because she had thought that I was depressive. Which I am, in a kind of way! 3nodding The number of times I've thought about suiciding myself are... I lost count a long time ago. xp I guess that all of you that are going to read my post will be like "That KC dude sure is hilarious, especially when he says he's depressed! rofl " But I'm not doing this because I want to make you people laugh, it's because well my brother said that I should let out what I have in the heart so I'll feel better and that's what I'm doing. Ok I admit it, I have ADD, Attention Deficit Disorder. For those who don't know what it is, here's the definition: A syndrome, usually diagnosed in childhood, characterized by a persistent pattern of impulsiveness, a short attention span, and often hyperactivity, and interfering especially with academic, occupational, and social performance. Yeah, that's so me! whee I love having attention and I don't care what it takes to have some. Guess that's why I speak loudly most of the time. mrgreen When I think about it, my bestest friends only know half of me. Only a friend knows me just a little better and that friend is so far away. gonk You must think that I'm stupid confinding myself to a complete stranger. But I don't think that person is a stranger, I have the impression that I've always known that person but that we lost contact. I think that in previous lives, we were best friends and who knows, lovers maybe? ninja heart The point is I feel safe around that person. When did we meet... 2 years ago near christmas time. Who knew that we would have so much in common even do we have 4 years of difference? xd I'm sure that we'll meet one day soon, I really hope so. It would make me happier because before we met, I was in a big depression phase even if it didn't show at all. That person kinda saved me and I owe that person everything. cool heart I dedicate the song "I knew I loved you" by "Savage Garden", it's a really beautiful song.
Well, I might add some stuffs to this entry later on if I feel like it... rolleyes






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Nisham
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commentCommented on: Wed Sep 28, 2005 @ 01:21am
I was sure I was your best friend and that I understood you better than any one else! Whats wrong with you KC? I know all of you, from left to right and from down and up! I know how you feel and how to react and when you are really down or just been a drama king. Its not fair that you should put a ******** stranger before me! I'm always there for you and I'm always trying my best for you!

You are a selfish, mean, jerk! We tried! We all tried to help you and you still won't let us help you and now you are pushing your best friends off for some dude on a computer than you have never seen!

So much for taking a bullet for me! Right now I wouldn't even kill a bug for you! Die a*****e! Go cry in the arms of some stranger who doesn't know you!


commentCommented on: Wed Sep 28, 2005 @ 11:08pm
You're right Nisham. I am a selfish, mean jerk. neutral
I know that you tried to help me even if it was in little ways, but it just didn't get through me. Why would you kill a bug for me? lol I would take a bullet for some people and you were one of them. Sorry but I think that crying would only make things worse, so I'd rather just not express any feelings.

Do you really understand me, all of me? No, you don't and I don't understand myself pretty well... Sorry for being a drama king but some things really hurt my feelings even if they're stupid. I am really annoyed at people and life now so yeah... I know that I'm stupid since everyone reminds me everyday that I am. *sighs* I just need some peace, last time I talk about my life in my journal...



kawaii_chibi
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Nisham
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commentCommented on: Thu Sep 29, 2005 @ 12:03am
Oh please! You talk about hurt feelings and pain but what about me? What about my feelings that you hurt? You don't even care do you? Its all about you! Try thinking of me a bit ok? I'm after all your supposed best friend and yet all you care is yourself! Think of others a little, we already spend enought time thinking about you.


commentCommented on: Thu Sep 29, 2005 @ 03:24am
Aw man!! Curse Gaia!! I wrote this super long and nice comment, but because of stupid gaia stupid glitches my stupid comment got stupidly lost into the stupid world. scream I WILL NOT REWRITE IT FOR I CURSE GAIA!! scream



Gin Tonic
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kawaii_chibi
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commentCommented on: Sun Oct 02, 2005 @ 07:00pm
*sighs* Nobody is perfect, so let's just forget about this...
I know what you wanted to say DL, I'm psychic so you don't have to write it down again. rofl


commentCommented on: Thu Oct 06, 2005 @ 12:38am
Really? Well you know what.. you must be really good, because I don't even remember what I wanted to write. sweatdrop xd



Gin Tonic
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kawaii_chibi
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commentCommented on: Thu Oct 06, 2005 @ 11:07pm
You always crack me up DL! lol Don't you know that I'm psychic? cool heart


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