Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

See, I never have my homework done, why?

I guess because I spend too much time on the computer...

Anyways, I hate this feeling.

The looming, continuous, inevitable knowledge that it isn't done, but that it it must be.

Then the look of dissappointment on my teachers face when I tell them I don't have it.

I make more promises that I will get it done tomorrow for a late grade.

Then I don't.

I feel sad lately, not depressed, just constantly sad.

Is being constantly sad depression?

I don't know, even seeing Cat every day doesn't seem to help.

I hate it...this is how I felt at camp...

Tired...all the time...tired...and sad...

Then I must get my homework done...

For once...

So I can sleep good again.


School was made to create more stress...

And the teacher's aren't helping...

I should make journal entries about something more exciting...

At least I'll post a song befitting to my mood.

Linkin Park
"Papercut"
---
Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today.
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
Like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)

So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me
Right beneath my skin

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

I know I've got a face in me
Points out all my mistakes to me
You've got a face on the inside too and
Your paranoia's probably worse
I don't know what set me off first
But I know what I can't stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can't add up to what you can but

Everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall
(And watches everything)

So you know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too
Right inside your skin

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

The face inside is right beneath your skin (3x)

The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me
The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me

The sun
I feel the light betray me
The sun
I feel the light betray me

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin
---