I want to make a decision, but I just can't. emo emo emo
Something is against to my heart, and it doesn't let me decide...
I know what should I do, but I just can't do that. But I really don't want to hurt A N Y O N E..... eek
I want to stay the way that I am on, because it's calm, and very good, and when we finally can be together just the to of us, i feel like i'm in heaven....
But now....I feel like The Nobodies from Marilyn Manson:
Today I'm dirty
I want to to be pretty
Tomorrow I know, I'm just dirt
Today I'm dirty
I want to to be pretty
Tomorrow I know, I'm just dirt
Yesterday I was dirty
Wanted to be pretty
I know now that I'm forever dirt
Yesterday I was dirty
Wanted to be pretty
I know now that I'm forever dirt
Yes I am ******** dirty, and guilty, and the only thing I can do ( stare ...not I can do MORE, than this, but I'm so confused what can be the best way for US) is praying to Mr Fate to solve our problem, and help me to decide witch way bring the real happiness.
I'm a lot worse than him...
I hate myself...
I should move into a mountain, don't talk to anyone, don't see anyone. burning_eyes
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Trouble in my Mind
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