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School day..
well again writing in my online diary, wondering what to say. Well its the first day back to school after break, Im still emotionally depressed, I haven't done any work except search on my game project, got a few papers out, and I truly don't think Im ready for school right now...not until Amber gets on and loves me, because I probably can't even focus on anything but her...I just wish she would get on, I prayed for this day to happened..Im not sure what to do right now, since no one is texting me, I feel isolated, going to court, all of this stress coming down on my back, and mbers on my heart, I feel like im being ripped to shreds...I hate it...I want to kill the one who did this to me...I want to KILL!! my own mother..shes pathetic of an excuse, care for me? sure hitting me with a metal bat is caring!! sure threatening to kill me while I sleep is caring!! sure, placing all the work on me is making me 'the MAN OF THE HOUSE' is caring! ******** off mom, Im my own man now...If Amber kills herself now with everything..then Im going to die as a hermit..a virgin..so be it, she took my heart and I love her for it, but if she kills herself, it probably means that the sress was so much, she probably thought that my love was nothng, so I doubt she has done that...4 months and 2 days left..make that one day left...every time I read my old mail in the inbox..all the fun me and her have..laughing..telling jokes..loving..showing how much I love her...it makes me cry all the time, and it always proves to me that being with her has been the greatest thing of my entire life and always will, because I will always be with her and help her out of obstacles everyday..period heart
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