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I finally got the chance...my heart burning, my eyes clear, I can finally speak with Ambers close friend, Jester, who is like a sister to me...and they told me I cant speak to her..I cant stop crying! my face scratched, my life in ruins, my heart all filled in hope! I wanted to be with her when she needed the most! now im nothing!...nothing to them!..I can't bare to hear this!! I love her I truly do, I want to bakc her up with everything! I want to ask her hand even!! Im nothing to others! my tears arched over my neck and drop from my cheeks, I feel like no one wants to listen to my voice, my tears! my heart! auuuugh!!! the pain!! again im thrown into the madness jaws of the dark!! isolated, even from my love one!! I want to talk to her!! please sister!! please Jester!! I want to talk to her I love her!! I...LOVE....YOU! I love you Amber! ooohhhgod, why can't anyone see Im ripped apart from the demons within and the only one who can put me back together is her! AUUGGH!!! cry heart