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I miss my journal.
I titled this so because I'm just gonna type anything and everything that's been on my mind for a while.

I REALLY want Jessie to leave me alone.
I mean, she's getting a bit too close for my comfort.

I hate coming home, hanging with Tim, and going back to my dorm feeling like I'm leaving a chunk of who I am back home and feeling lonely.
Sure I have other friends, but they don't really compare.

I hate my biology class.
And chemistry.
I wanna change over to theatre and vocal performance majors, but, if I do theatre, I won't have a social life if I get casted in something.

I want Jose to be nearer.
If I think part of me is left with Tim...
Then 2/3 of my being are with Jose.

I'm angry because I didn't cry very much at my grandfather's funeral.

I'm an insomniac again.
That's screwing over EVERYTHING.

I wish that I weren't so lonely feeling.
Like I said, I have college friends, but they don't compare to my best friends...

I'm glad that people are happy.
And I am to, but, I feel a bit of nagging depression festering in the corners of my heart.

I'm getting a bit thinner.
Yay?
I'll never keep it off.

I wanna sing.
Not in front of my mirror, or my friends.
I want a frickin' record deal, concerts, the whole 9 yards.
It would almost be therapeutic.
I wanna sing all my favorite songs and for once feel like I'm talented.
At least a little bit.

Do people hate me?
Am I annoying?
Am I annoying for thinking people hate me and that I'm annoying?

Geez, I've posted a lot this time.
But I'm glad I could get this all off my chest.

More to come?
Probably.