My name is Sarah Hawthorne. I'm fifteen years old.
I'm the third child in a family of six; My parents [ Selena and David ], of course; two older brothers, one [ Ethan ] of whom is eighteen and will be a freshman in college, the other is sixteen [ Travis ] and going to be a junior in highschool; and a sister [ Jenny ] who's eleven and will be in sixth grade. Not that I care of course. I'm simply keeping track of the years to come.
I watch a lot of television and I do go to the movies when I have a chance. I do read novels, but I'm kinda picky on the genres. Action and psychological seem to interest me more than romantic comedy. I like anime and manga, so I tend to see more of those than teen dramas. And I play video games, mostly fighting and role-play. That's normal for me, I guess.
I might be a normal girl, but not that many people would think the same way. Even so, normality is probably just a 'standard' that the 'common' people think. So maybe I'm not normal at all.
But if I was, then I would be leading some sort of boring, eventless life.
But...I'm not.
As seen before, I'm a Magical Girl. They say that I'm the bad kind, not the dark kind. The kind that couldn't believe in ideals no matter how much they tried. After all, I live in an era of 'idealism', and some people take it too far. So they call me an 'Anti-Magical Girl'.
I don't believe in love and justice. All the other magical girls are supposed to believe in that.
It's one of the many thinge that rules me out as an 'Antithesis'.
What is an 'Antithesis', you may ask? It simply means 'the direct opposite of something'. But in this time, it means 'someone who does not live up to their expectations'. Different meanings, huh? Even those people are willing to reach 'xenophobia' to make a 'perfect society'.
Oh well. If I said that out in public, I'm more than likely to get shot in the head.
But that's how it works these days...
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The night is dark and clear. You could even see the stars. The moon hung at a thin cresent. You can even see the city around...or at least, what was left of the destruction around it. Though the city is pretty damn big; downtown is just a small part of it.
When I'm up somewhere high, it feels like I'm on top of the world. Sorta. Only this time, I just felt the same as ever. It's really just the roof of the dorms, five stories high, that's about it. Wired fences wrapped around the edges so that no one would fall off. But the height nor the boundaries didn't seem to matter as much. I would usually stop at these places just to think. It's calming.
Still, the fact that I got involved with the 'incident' was just unnerving. It's wierd. It's strange.
Ideals.
I gave up on that a long time ago.
I lean toward the railing that was attatched to the fence, looking towards the city. I should have gone to bed by now...though school starts in a week.
Those two boys, Zack and Tetsuro...who are they?
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I don't know.
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I feel like s**t. I don't know why. But I was done. I was done with this Magical Girl show. Because in a modern society, everyone wants to reach for the top, no matter what. I was the best. But then I sank. No one wants a useless s**t like that. Magical Girl Serali should never be like that.
Ever.
I failed epicly.
I wondered, what should I do with myself? Let's see. The building is pretty high, about five stories tall, to be exact. With my power, I can tear off part of this fence. What would happen if I fall off?
Will I live or will I die?
Either way, no one would care.
Or would they?
I question my normality. Nope, I'm not normal. Again, no one wants a useless s**t like that.
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