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Sometimes i wish i could change myself...im trying but its hard...actually ******** tht...im not tht girl thts mean to everyone im not her...but i am the girl who fights for what she believes in even if its wrong at the time...and i fight for the people i love...i want to change i SHOULD change...sometimes i mean for no damn reason thts just not the real me...the real me is deeper and i have to find her...but i feel tht she is drowning and if i dont grab her hand...it will be too late...this isnt me so i have to fight for who i rlly am and quit blaming others for things and be stronger...but in all tht...i wont let anyone talk bad about me or my friends...and if i have to end up killing someone for tht sake...so be it...but...i do promise not to kill someone over petty things...but...i...im not tht girl...im not saying i dont mean to say those things at the time...but im better than this fighting...and im better than this...the real me...is better yet than the one i am now...i wear a mask of anger...and i need o remove it...to redeem tht girl...who not only is kind and nice...but fights for what is right...she doesnt let people walk over her but she also isnt cruel to them...im gonna work for this but its not just for me tht i work...its for u too noel...especially u...bcuz...if i go on like im going on now...ill lose u to someone else...and i dont want tht...i need u in my love u are my true love...and this erica isnt the one u fell in love with...the other erica...the one thts the real me is the one...and im still here...still aliv esomewhere in this dark dank shell of the evil one...
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