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God, I've completely fallen in love with Nana again.
It brings back so many good memories of the glory days, haha.

I feel like lately I just want to live in the past,
And avoid growing up entirely.

But I also just want to hurry up and be by your side forever.

For a while now,
I've been feeling like I'm gonna die young.
Or kinda young. Younger than anyone should die.

It kinda relieves me,
but it freaks me out because I don't want you to die before me,
I know this is selfish but life wouldn't be the same without you.

I remember when we used to say we'll just die at the same time,
So that we don't have to deal with it.
So that we can literally be together forever.

Do you still feel that way? I often find myself asking this question,
Because I know I can't actually ask you.

But things do change,
And I wouldn't be mad at you if you would be able to live without me.

I'm just codependent.
I could never live without the person I love the most,
and I don't even have to say that's you.

It's scary, all the memories Nana brings back to me.
They're all good memories though.

I think Nana is one of those things...
that I'll always treasure in my life.
Even after the story ends,
Even if Ai Yazawa never continues writing it,
I feel like it's just one of those things... that will just fade away from my memory.

Sometimes I think Gaia is going to be one of those things from my teenage years that I bring with me,
versus all the wild nights I've had,
versus all the shitty people I've encountered,
versus all the bad, I think those two things will prevail.
But maybe that's because I consider them two of the biggest factors in our friendship in some sense?

Gaia did bring us together.
Even if fate is real and it made sure we'd be intertwined,
it would've taken many years longer without Gaia, right?

and Nana is just one of those first things I remember
us both being so interested in and happy about,
I remember us and Ayu having discussions about it on Towns from time to time.

Sometimes I consider our friendship like Nana and Hachi's,
the only difference is I don't want us to end up in a relationship like I want them to.
But that's only because its for the best.