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This is my first journal entry. I decided to start writing hoping I could figure things out. I am seventeen years old and like most girls my age supposedly are, I am confused. One minute my life seems to be normal, and the next I am either faced with so many choices I am ready to rip my hair out, or so little to do I go crazy. Nothing happens, and nothing happens, and then everything happens. Life is funny like that - but definitely not in a ha-ha sort of way.
Anyways, I should tell you a few things about myself. First of all, I have ADHD (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder). Basically this mean I can't seem to concentrate on one thing at a time and I am constantly moving on to other activities. Take today for example; I decided it was high time to clean my room, so I started cleaning and noticed a penny on the ground. So I went upstairs and made a piggy bank out of an old jar. I then decided I needed more than just one penny in the piggy bank so I went to my mom giant jar full of pennies and sifted through it to try and find quarters and such. I then found a 1962 penny in the jar and decided to try and find one penny from each year. So I did. I successfully found every penny from 2011-1954. This is my life ON my ADHD medication. So basically even when I take pills to make me concentrate, it doesn't really work. My room is still a mess.
Anywho, moving on. I am 5 11", have long strawberry blonde hair, my ears are stretched (about the size of a penny), i have my septum pierced, my eyes range from bright green to light gray depending on the season and my mood, I live with my mother and older sister (when she's not away at school), and my dad passed away when I was a little over a year old. I don't know much about him. As for my school life, I go to a PSDL (Personal Self Directed Learning) school. Basically PSDL is like home schooling except you actually go to a school every day and I have structured options (I take art). This coming year is my grade 12 year, I am taking art 30 and art 35 as my options. Art 35 is called a portfolio coarse, so it's going to be about putting together a portfolio to help me get into a good art school for post secondary. I love painting, its one of the only things I find I can concentrate on.
As for my personal relationships, right now is tough. I just stopped being friends with a girl I had been friends with since the 1st grade. We'll call her M. To be truthful I think it would have been much healthier for both of us if we had broken it off back in the 8th grade, that's when we started not liking each other. I think the only reason we had stayed friends for so much longer afterwards was because it was just habit for the two of us to be friends. I do have other friends, one of my closest friends right now being H. H is a year younger than me but she is very mature for her age. We have tons of fun together and never seem to run out of things to talk about. She goes to a special art school about 3 blocks away from my school. Unfortunately I haven't seen any of my friends all summer because I'm grounded, but more on that later.
As far as boys go... I'm not so great with guys. One guy I really like is J. J and I haven't talked much, but theres a spark there. At least for me. I doubt he even notices me, he does live half way across the country after all. The only time I see him is over summer vacation (We work at the same summer camp). There is a guy at school however, C. C is cute, has a good sense of humor, is nerdy just like me, but is also part of the Navy, so he is strong and handsome. I do feel a spark there, but I don't know...
Anyways, I will write again soon. Tah-tah for now~
PoshTotti · Mon Aug 22, 2011 @ 01:35am · 0 Comments |
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