So I started eating healthier lately in an attempt to thin out a bit before grad. I want to look my very best for the actual even of graduation and I also want to be a slightly thinner more confident me when I step out into the world on my own for the first time. I'm planning to do A LOT of travelling so I plan on giving Canadian girls a good name by showing the rest of the world how awesome we are! The reason I bring this up is because I've noticed lately that I've actually started getting my s**t together. I was a nail bitter my entire life and I've finally quit and now my nails look AWESOME, and I managed to do pretty well in summer school. I've been keeping thing around the house tidier than usual and I've started applying for jobs. Finger crossed I get the job at starbucks!
I just really wished I had started my diet earlier... I see C for the first time in 2 months tomorrow and I'm freaking out a little. If he's been thinking about me half as much as I've been thinking about him then its going to be kind of a big deal seeing each other again. I mean, he's been at basic training for the navy all summer so he's probably going to come back more muscular then when he left, and I've been stuck inside my house, grounded, doing nothing all summer. I'm pale and pathetic, and he's probably tan and muscular. I hope I can look good enough for him.
On the subject of being grounded, I did say in my last entry that I would explain why I am grounded, but I must have forgotten to. Basically I went through a bit of a rebellious faze. It all started back when I was a tiny tenth grader(not exactly tiny... as I said in my last entry, I'm about 5"11), I was friends with who I assumed were all the right people to be friends with in high school. They were cool, fun, attractive, and I loved hanging out with them. Of course, like every teenager, I started smoking weed. It wasn't even just because I wanted to be cool, I generally enjoyed smoking up with my friends and hanging out.
Unfortunately at the time I was suffering from something called seasonal depression. It when you get depressed during a specific season, and of course mine happened to be during the longest season in Canada... Winter. So I started smoking weed less as a casual fun thing, and more as a thing to help me cope. My mom found my weed a couple times, and obviously I was grounded. Being locked in my house sure didn't help the depression. Through all of grade 10 I got myself into quite a bit of trouble with smoking, drinking, and weed. This brings us to grade 11, in grade 11 I got into even more trouble with drinking, sneaking out of the house, and lying about sleeping at friends houses when I was actually at parties. I'm not particularly proud of all of this. I will say that I did get grounded for a lot of things I shouldn't have been grounded for, but a lot of it I did deserve. My mom is a hard a** though, so ANYTHING warrants a grounding in my house. this bring us up to my birthday, August 3rd, which was only a few weeks ago.
August 2nd, day before my birthday started out fine. At the time I was grounded for a party I had gone to in APRIL. Yes, I was still grounded in august, for a party I went to in April. My mother is a crazy son of a b***h. Anyways, being grounded and alone, I was counting down the hours until I could be officially grounded and alone on my birthday (midnight). That's when I got a text from my really close friend J who lived about a 5 minute walk from my house. He was asking if I wanted to hang out for a bit so he could wish me happy birthday. It was actually only about 8pm but my mom was in bed because she was sick. So I simply walked out the front door and went to the park by my house that is smack in the middle of mine and J's houses.
We hung out until about 11pm and then he had to go home, so I got to my house and noticed the lights were on. I tried the side door and it was locked, and I couldn't go in through the front or back because my mom was in the living room. ********. I was stuck. I freaked out and didn't know what to do. So, being the idiot that I am I tried to sneak in through my window. My window is on ground level because my room is in the basement, but the window RIGHT above it is the living room, and it was open. So I almost have the screen pried off the window when I hear my dog barking. I hid for a few minutes and everything was quiet. This happened about 3 times. So I'm so close to getting the screen pried off the window when I notice a short, chubby, shadowy figure that was obviously my mother standing by the back yard gate. I just about s**t my heart out my a**, I bolted it past her and in through the front door avoiding her arm swing at me.
She got into the house, there was lots of yelling and screaming. Long story short, I was kicked out of my house on my birthday. I went back to J's house but ended up staying at my friend B's house for the night because B's parents were out of town so I wouldn't have to awkwardly explain to J's parents why I got kicked out of my house on my birthday. Long story short I am grounded until I'm 18, or at least until I graduate. Lucky for me that's this year.
Anyways, I will spare you any further reading today. Tah-tah for now~
PoshTotti · Fri Aug 26, 2011 @ 01:13am · 0 Comments |