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I want to start off by saying, the guy I've been talking about in my recent entries this year is a literal trash bag. This went too far.

Mark has me f u c k e d up. There's this messy a** situation going on and he really ******** chose to side with my enemy, who also happens to be his ex, over me. That's complete bullshit. He's mad because I talked to my friend, CB, who he doesn't like and she has a baby with. A literal exchange of words. Me and CB are friends. Also, I can talk to who the ******** I want to talk to. You don't run s**t. I don't know what they thought this s**t was.

Mark's saying me and CB always start the drama, not him and E. You mother ******** wish we did. Honestly, probably praying over stars about the s**t, They are just easily bothered by everything me and/or CB do. Mark has a reaction to everything I do and whoever I talk to. I don't start s**t. I finish it. I'm too ******** zen and unbothered to be starting up s**t out of nowhere.

I knew he would listen to whatever this girl told him. I could tell he still harbored affection for her, even though she royally ******** him over when they were together. He was bringing all of that s**t to our relationship. Siding with his ex, or whatever she is to him. I don't really care. This b***h has been talking out of the side of her neck for a while, and I've remained cool and zen, but I'm about to come out of my ******** cage on them. I've just been laughing at her.

They really don't get that I'm not the one to ******** with, and I'm saying "them" because he decided to side with her. I'm tired of looking at this b***h's face. She better know the consequences of her actions. How does he still have feelings left over for this ******** childlike a** hoe? I'm thoroughly perplexed.

Instead of picking fights with me over guys, focus on your mother ******** self. There wouldn't be a problem if she weren't bothered by me just doing my own thing. That's how this started anyway. You want to fight over guys, mamita? You look mad ******** dumb. Can't believe I was friends with someone like this.

I don't know what the ******** Mark is on and why I've put up with this s**t. It's really coming to a head. He shouldn't have put me in a position like this with his ex b***h, involving her in our relationship like he did, confiding in her about our s**t. And I'm not wasting my time on a guy who will still choose his ex, someone who's wrecked the living hell out of him, over me. Say no ******** more, because I know what I deserve. And it's definitely not that s**t. Not of this. That's complete bullshit.

I'm really trying not to wild out on anyone, and to keep my composure.

I told Mark I'm about done with him.

We'll see what happens next.