Sometimes I wonder why I even bother with somethings? Why do I even wish to want certain things? Nothing ever seems to go my way. It's like I have hope, and then it's gone. Something seems to be going right, and then something else comes up and then it's ruined. Gradution is just around the corner, and I feel so overwhelmed by everything that goes along with it. I need a job...but of course things come up and I believe that's ruined now. I've recently found out news that still makes me sick when I think about, and I have no possibly chance of even thinking about talking to someone else about it. Nothing ever seems as it is I guess. You think something is going great and then you find out that all along, there was something the matter to begin with. You always thought everything has been perfect, and then you find out it isn't. You have no choice but to accept the harsh reality and push it aside. But no matter how much you want to forget, you can't. There is always a feeling deep down that things aren't ever going to be like they were...even if you wanted them to. Life is comepletely unexpected. You never know what's going to happen...how much one action will affect how you feel about certain things. You how you feel at certain moments..but you'll never know if you'll regret anything in the future. I have no regrets. I'm just scared. I'm scared of what's going to happen within the near future. I'm about to start my life. Everything is going to be so different. Things have already began to change...and I'm beginning to think that maybe I'm not ready. Am I the only one that feels this? I don't even know I why I bother writing these thing...no body reads them and if they did they don't care. I think I'm going to go sleep or something. Dreams are always a wonderful place to escape to. That's what I need--to escape.
 -.Chaotic.Reverie.- · Thu May 18, 2006 @ 08:19pm · 1 Comments |
