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"What'll you do when you get lonely
And nobody's waiting by your side?
You've been running and hiding much too long.
You know it's just your foolish pride."

Someone called me damaged for the first time in my life,
Told me I needed to be repaired and find a way to get back to the person I used to be, who loved so recklessly.

I can't help but wonder if its possible to find yourself where you used to be?
Like a circular motion, surely not all lessons we learn are right.

I like someone, I really do.
She surprises me with how kind she can be, but I know she's just as afraid of the idea of falling in love.
I can see it in the way she acts, but her eyes long for affection.
She gets nervous by it though, when I kiss her softly and tell her she's cute.

She nearly cried over the gift I gave her, and I'm not sure if that's just because she's emotional, or if I really took her by storm because she needs someone to treat her right.

Do I have it in me to give someone that much affection? Even if they struggle to return the favor to me?
Am I willing to risk being damaged again and again and again over different people who need to learn how to love themselves, while I still need to learn to love myself?
Am I willing to risk stifling my growth in light of her own?

Is she worth the risk, is the temptation really that strong?
If only I knew.