I found myself waking up this morning and realising that I don't know who I am anymore. I used to be the smart person people could turn to, like a psychiatrist, only not after your money and feeding you crap... And my girl, I haven't seen her in 2 weeks... I've noticed all I do now is type on my computer, and make my website. I've become completely detatched from the outside world, and it scares me. I think I may be falling into a depression, in an endless spiral that may take a lot to get me out of. At night, I bearly sleep. During the day, I can't concentrate... what is wrong with me? I miss my Girl, but I have this feeling that If I call her, I may find out exactly why her Aunt and uncle don't like me... and I would hate to find that they hate me. I know I am dating their neice, but I feel that it may be causing more harm to them knowing this... I knew I should have kept it secret. They were fine with it untill last time I was at C's house (that's her Nickname)... I think me holding her hand in her uncle's view may have set him off. Now, I find myself not only afraid of what I may have done, but afriad of what I may become as a result of not being around her often... or if all should that be the case under her aunt's wishes. The only time I can see her is at the vet (where she works), and I have no way to get there.
Now, I am here, again, on the computer doing nothing with my life, and afraid to do anything.
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It's not what it looks like, I swear.
And that just what you know
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