The Love That Destroyed Itself
His eyes that were so brilliantly blue, the eyes she loved so tenderly, so truely, lost their color one day. The warmth, the love, it all went cold. She reached out to him, only to be stopped by a force field that surrounded him. She looked at him, tears streaming down her face.
"How could this be?" she begged him. All he could do was look away from her. No answer, no tenderness that was there before. She looked to him, longing to feel his strong arms around her, to hear his gentle voice whisper "I love you" to her, to feel his soft kiss on her lips. Where has it all gone? What the hell went wrong with something so right? so beautiful and perfect. The last rose has died...
She sits and waits, praying for a change, but alas, it is all the same. And she goes to her friends for advice. "Help me" she pleads "Help me understand why this love that I would die for has faded away!" Her friends instead punish him, attack him. And all she can do is sit and cry and watch the force field become more strong, more visible, and it is destroying her on the inside. "How could this happen to us?" she says to herself. "I thought we were stronger than this, my love?''
Slowly, everyday, she gets up, with hope in her heart. "Maybe he has changed back today" but to no avail. In some cases he seems worse. She wants to hold him and love him. She would do anything for him, for he was the first person to ever return her love the way he did. She holds on so tightly begging to find a truth. She even blames herself. "I must have done something.." She says to herself constantly. This world was new to her, and she didn't want to push her beloved, her koishii, away. He finally speaks. "It wasn't you" but is cold eyes say different. But what exactly are his eyes saying? For once in her life, she saw a story in his eyes that she didn't want to explore...
The time has come, my love....and I leave you with this
"How far, do I have to go to make you understand? I want to make this work so much it hurts but I just can't, Keep on givin' go on livin' with the way things are, so I'm gonna walk away, and it's up to you to say....How Far"
Song: How Far
Artist: Martina McBride
tell me...how far....
-turns and starts her journey-
