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Tonight everything was going swell,
your light drew me out of my self-drawn hell.
You have shown me another part of life,
that has eluded me till now...

But she keeps drawing me back,
not knowing that I already let go.
I have drawn her out of her hell,
but she fails to see that I have already gone...

But said she had something to tell me,
but once again it was just a ploy to draw me back.
When will she see?
See, that I never want to go back...

Yes, I am happy, now that you have stepped out,
Welcome to the outside world, that you turned away from.
But can't you see that while your clinging,
you are trying to drag me back down?...

I have moved on,
to a much better place.
I have found another that accepts me,
she likes me for more than my face...

Yes, I am sorry that I must leave,
but can't you see that there is more to life?
Yes, I must be awful to you for leaving,
but, that is what people have been doing to me, in mine...

My mind is already made up,
I have moved on to higher places.
To meet people that can help me forget,
forget about the pain that my past has placed...

May you soon see that I may hide,
that I may cower in these shadows.
But I also feel the pain of seperation,
that is why I have these shadows.
They allow me to deal with this pain,
while not allowing anyone else to veiw...

This pain that i now feel,
no one else can see.
You veiwed it once,
but chose to ignore it.
So now i turn to reveal it once more,
but to show you,
that i have learned to deal with it...

I retreat into these shadows,
to heal the pain that was inflicted.
I vowed then to never show,
this side of me to anyone ever again...