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Im in a realy rough spot right now. My girlfriend of 9 months broke up with me less than 2 weeks ago, due to " personal reasons ". Getting dumped is nothing new to me, as I've had a grand total of 7 girlfriends so far, but the fact that it happened, just shook me to the core. I loved her, honestly and truely, and couldn't have been happier when I was by her side. Although I could see it coming, I didn't think it would happen so soon. Now, after all is said and done, I can honestly say, I hate being single. Its not like I have too prove my existance and self worth by being with someone, I just hate being alone.This is going to take some explaining as to why, so please, try to keep up.
For a greater part of my life, I have been alone. I am an only child, and was always considered an outcast, a weirdo, a freak. Because of the cruelness and selfeshness of my fellow classmates, I was picked on, humiliated, embarassed, exluded, and alienated like a leper because I dared to be different. For 8 long, agonizing years I was forced to learn how to become self reliant at an early age, and I became what they treated me like. A shadow. Nothing.
When high school came, it was like a dream come true. There were dozens of people like me, and i was no longer nothing. I was someone at last.
That is why I hate being alone. It reminds me too much of the hard times in my life.
On the plus side, there are an awful lot of cute girls in my school.
Yours from the Darkness,
Adumar
 Adumar · Sun Sep 17, 2006 @ 11:14pm · 2 Comments |
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