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Well, its back to school and so far I'm having a miserable time. The first day was the worst. It rained all day, I got classes I don't like, and I got locked out of my house when I got home. I sat outside on my porch waiting for someone to return for about two hours before my mother called and said she wouldn't be back till late (I could hear the awnsering machine through the window), so I had to take apart a window to get in. I cut my leg in the process unfortunatly.
Also with the return to school is my depression. Not more than one hour into school I became depressed. This year is going to be much worse, I have less people I trust to talk to. Luna is usually always there though, but I don't want to burden her with my problems. I just hope I can get some help before it's too late. My girlfreind isn't on all that much now, school and all. One other girl I know ridicules me when I talk to her so thats out of the question. Most guys I know on AIM give me the impression I'm a pest to them.

Depression is a horrible thing. Most times I want to just break down and cry but I can't because:
1. I'm at school and I'm afraid of anybody seeing me.
2. I just can't let it all out.
Whats ironic is that the most times when I want to break down is when I'm at school.

Please come now I think I'm falling
I'm holding to all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I'm trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down

I'm looking down now that it's over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in His grace
I cried out heaven save me
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down

Sad eyes follow me
But I still believe there's somthing left for me
So please come stay with me
'Cause I still believe there's something left for you and me
For you and me
For you and me

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking