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Tonight my mind starts to wander,
so I close my eyes and let myself go.
To go to a place long familiar,
where no one wants to go...

I stand here on the edge of the lake,
watching my reflection in the gentle ripples.
The night air is cool against my bare skin,
the moon glinting off of it...

I look down at my reflection,
and see all this pain written there.
So many marks and bruises along my arms,
showing where they have hurt me here...

But the deepest wound of all,
is one that only you can see.
I see it only as a reflection in the water,
as I see you standing there...

You have your arms wrapped around me,
and now I must sit down here on the edge of the water.
Because I know you are not here,
you are no longer with me...

In the reflection you wrap your arms around me,
not seeing the wound growing deeper.
Not heeding to the pain written on my face,
not seeing the blood pouring down this chest...

I look up out on the water,
aware of this fact:
When you are around these wounds heal,
but when you are away they grow...

When will they finally let me go?
To let me live in peace?
When will we be together?
Forever in peace?

I stand up on the cliff,
overlooking the lake.
I take a deep breathe and dive,
into the deep waters of the lake...

I wake up in a cold sweat,
tears running down my face.
I drive up to that lake,
and look down at my reflection,
knowing now the path I must take...

I take a deep breath,
and hope that I am right...