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My girlfriend, Melissa (a.k.a Cookie, a.k.a. C), is the most wonderful girl in the world. She's pleasent, fun, and all around great to be with... I've been with her 1 year as of September 13, 2004 and ever time I am with her, the weight of the world seems to be lifted off my sholders. She's the first girl I had ever kissed, and I think may the the person I will be with for the rest of my life..

However, ever since graduation, I think that she and I have been slowly drifting apart... At first, I didn't think twice about it, after all we couldn't see each other every day anymore since we didn't go to school anymore, I understand this even if it was heart wrenching for me. But now I think that we are getting to a point in where I may have to build a bridge to get to her... I am almost certain that I had screwed up somehow the last time I was at her house in showing my affection to her in front of her Aunt and Uncle (holding hands), but I can't change that. Now, I am afraid to dial her number in fear that someone besides C would answer and I would have to explain myself. I find myself awake each night thinking about this, and finding that I couldn't find any ways to get myself closer... what is to become of she and I?

I had not called C in 3 weeks, so I did so today. Our converstion was short (she had to do housework), and almost dead quiet... it's during this converstion that I realized: It's been over a year, and I know very little of this girl. I don't know if I am simply unable to think, but I know that I wasn't able to pull any information out of my head for a conversation... Afterwards I was thinking to myself "WTF?". So, I turned to the notes that she and I had passed back and forth in class (a total of about 80 on my portion), and I found I didn't get much info about her in those... I never asked any key questions. What do I know? Her full name, her age, her birthday, her favorite color, her hair color, some of her background, her favorite song, her favorite show, and her feeling towards someone that used to be her friend. ...Omg, I don't even know her eye color.

I know I couldn't spend as much time as I wanted with her in High school because of classes and such, but now I can't spend anytime with her anymore. After talking with a friend online, He suggested that I apply at the place C works at... I replied that I had no transportation to the city. Since then, my dad had bought a car, and now I have a way to get there! I hope they have a job open... I want to be with her more, and I hope this can help... but if not, I don't know what I will do...