All my life all I've been told was I wasn't anything at all. Or I was yelled at. Or made fun of. I thought after so many years this would finally end but it isn't. It's just getting worse and worse by every passing day. I need to be loved, not hurt. Can't others realize I'm too fragile to be hurt? My heart...it's beat seems so faint to me, almost as if I'm already dead.
Oh what I have to go through everyday. Everyday is the worse day of my life, each day it just gets worse. Everyone is just the same, ignorant of my problem. Every little joke, every little secret of mine exposed for the entertainment of others, every little insult...it piles up and it hurts....it hurts unbearably. Killing myself would made everything easier for me.
No one deserves to be treated or feel the way I do. I don't know what I've ever done to deserve this. I've always wanted to live a happy life with people I love. Unfortunaltly very few people love me and fewer still even care to see me around. *Clutches chest* The pain, it's all too emotional for me, I can't stand it I won't.
If there is anyone out there that actually cares and doesn't put on some show just to make me not commit suicide, please, send me a message as soon as you read this message. I need help, I'll wait a few days before deciding if I should kill myself or not...
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