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Why does this wound continue to exist?
If only to deal more pain,
others see it of course,
and try their hardest to drive me into the pain...

The songs are right of course,
the first one hurts the most.
But it only acts as a knife,
everytime after just drives it deeper...

But when will the pain end?
When can I finally heal?
I have moved on,
forgiving those that had dealt to me the blows...

But they laugh in my face,
not seeing the pain it causes.
Or is it because of that?
That they are laughing and driving?

Everytime I see her or them,
it cuts even deeper.
Everytime they ignore me,
the crimson flow runs deeper...

I always manage a smile though,
trying to hide this pain.
So that they do not get the pleasure,
from seeing me in this much pain...

When I manage to get back to my room,
into my physical place of solace.
I break down into my darkness,
into my own place of solace...

Here, no one can hurt me,
I can heal from the pain.
Here, I help those around me,
those, that feel the same kind of pain...

But as soon as I step back out,
back into the light of day.
They are there waiting,
to see how to cause much pain...

If that is what it takes,
to please you and the others.
Than I will stand right here with arms spread wide,
so you might see how much of this pain,
will flow into the crimson tide...