Today was a very funny feeling day today. Today is my birthday and for some reason I am not excited about it. I guess it's because I see all the responsibilities ahead of me that it takes out all the fun and joy of being 18. Yes, 18. The big age that breaks you out from being a emo teenager with styles and emotions to adulthood. It's not a good feeling for me to break away. It's actually sad that I don't get to do the things a teenager should have done. It's as if I skipped my teenage life. All the things I should have done as a teenager I want to do now. I guess...It's too late, I'll just have to make sure my future children can enjoy it while they can I guess.
Oh today, I got to stay home from school! Yeah I know it sounds lame that I am excited about that but It feels so good to be home alone on a school day! I love it! It would have been more loving if rachel stayed at home as well... sadly she had to go to school u_u.....she'll be home soon though *waits*
Oh and while I am waiting for her to get home I guess I can tell whoever bothers to read my crummy journals that I love my girlfriend Rachel heart
She warms my heart just by her sound alone! She makes a black guy blush and a cat bark! Just like Cupid's Chokehold she has her own song! That's right! I wrote her a song damn you! Not just a stupid song that anyone can do but a good one! Well...that's all opinions though, but I still like it! blaugh
Sometimes I wonder about rachel though, she keeps things from me and tell me to "just drop it". It's if she is smiling on the outside and crying in the inside and it hurts me so much to see her do that to herself. It's not a good thing to keep so much inside like that, not to mention that it is a health hazard for females to do that because it increases their chance to get brain tumors. (happend to my cousin Pratrica R.I.P big cuz) Plus since I am a Bloody Angel I am LITTERALLY the person to open up too. I love her and don't want anything to hurt her, but she can't see that, all she sees is that it hurts me to see her hurting so she covers it with fake smiles and laughs and changes the subject. I wish she would be selfish about herself for a change, I mean guys like that a little but when it goes to far, it makes them "upset" to be around you. You have to find an equal about of caring and not caring about yourself.
Ok..I'll just shut up now and cheer up ^^ It's my freakin birthday!
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