So yeah, today was Valentines Day…
I was 90% sure that a specific person liked me. He had spent the better part of two and a half weeks flirting with me, or so I thought. It wasn’t even like I was the only one who got the impression he liked me; other people noticed too & had mentioned it. Sure I had gotten some mixed messages from him, but I put that down to him just being him.
That said, I decide ‘what the heck, if he doesn’t ask me out by Valentines Day, I’ll ask him.’ Other people backed me up (some to the point that it got a bit annoying), so it seemed like a reasonable thing to do. It turns out that it wasn’t. He said no.
I think I’ll be ok with the let down within a day or two, that’s not my biggest concern. The problem is cleaning up the mess that’s left over from this. Several people who saw us talking practically the whole time at UIL on Saturday assumed that we were going out. Lots of people had thoroughly convinced themselves that we would be going out by the end of today (honestly, I didn’t do a lot to stop them from thinking that). SO now I’ve got to clear up all the assumptions going through the rumor mill and tell the afore mentioned people that things just didn’t work out. Considering my social and gossiping abilities, this will probably end up being more painful then actually being turned down was.
Problem # 2: awkwardness. Chances are, I’ve managed to screw up the group dynamics of the people in our group at school to the point that things might will be awkward. I guess this is a big part of the reason why I didn’t tell a bunch of y’all that I was planning on asking him out (or only kind of half told you, or whatever). If he or I do a lot of shuffling our feet awkwardly for the next week or so, you’ll known why. If at all possible, try to make it easier on us.
Gods, I really hope I haven’t managed to totally screw up a perfectly good friendship…
On the bright side (yes, I always try to find the bright side, even when I should just give up and admit that I’ve made a mess of things), at least I’m no longer confused about weather or not there is anything going on between us. It was just awfully stressful not knowing.
Thanks for listening to me rant, and I hope this helps to explain a lot of what’s been going on lately. Sorry for any pain and/or confusion I might have caused because of this.
~liz
 The_liz_42 · Thu Feb 15, 2007 @ 12:52am · 0 Comments |
