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Now...catching back up with my life, this last year

Alot of people have been telling me they are worried about me, I don't need it. People, I am fine.

On Monday I realized the best thoughts I have anymore are when I am out walking or in a car, anywhere far from home. So I started carrying a notebook/sketchbook type thing around. I have written and drawn more in the past few days than I have in six months, I can hardly sleep, and I stay up until 2AM and wake up at 6:30AM which I think is a nice change from 2AM to 4AM.
I got to use my very own personal check on Wednesday, that was fun, I accidentally handed the person the receipt hah.
Not too long until I actually turn 16, since my birthday is on January 2nd, that is when I will be leaving most likely, for about a year if not two or three or four depending on what I want to do, but I will come around on the holidays and stuff.
Other than all that I have been trying to fix my dad's computer all damn day, I am learning alot about computers... but it sucks a**!
I have two backup discs, a faulty Ip address and a problematic router which I can't connect to my modem without dropping the connection, or loosing the phone... blah.
Oh, an apparently I am the illusive ben, sasquach of ollala valley, as said by Rick, Jason's dad.
I finally got out of my old night habits and people are asking me to go out at night again and have fun... it is frustrating...
It is always cold in my house... the heater won't heat up anything past 65º not that I mind... I like the temperature at 60-65, but stepping out of the shower into a 50º Fahrenheit house is horrifying.
I have put a hold on all book writing for a while and picked up drawing again, just dull sketches though.
I wish I could solve the mystery of the secret can. For you see, in our cabinet drawer there is a mystery can. In this can, there could be something we need or something horribly spoiled... we don't know how long it has been there or what is inside. For the tag disappeared ! And I just can't throw it away until I remember what it is, I know it is stupid, but it is driving me nuts.
I have been working out, with the weight equipment that Shelby gave me and my dad, I just got up to 90lbs, and I have been jogging, doing push ups, etc etc. But I am still a generic "Kirby".
I am thinking about growing my hair out... like... way out... I don't know if I should or not.
I won't be on the computer as much, for many separate reasons, but feel free to send me messages and I will get back to you.


I think I cleared my writers block completely, and finally. I finished part two to my original book, and I have been researching into every aspect of what I am writing about. So I have been up for nights on end reading articles and scientific fact, history and other junk. (My favorite thing to research were the torture methods...you would be amazed what simple levers, pulleys, and plants, among other things can do to you.) Oh and also, I finally got the new FMA movie and almost as awesome as that, I am totally ordering a magical Trevor plushie


So bored and I can't fall asleep... you know what's funny? My chimney leads into a small locked box filled with ash and s**t... lol... Santa is going to love that, while I sit inside and eat the milk and cookies xD

Nah I like the santa tradition though, strange thing, I can't put any belief into religion, but I can support an idol like santa or the easter bunny, every year, and enjoy it.

But really, merry Christmas everybody.

Yeah.

Oh, I was reading up on Internet "Issues" and how kids get kidnapped and stuff...

Really now.

How dumb do you have to be to get kidnapped? I have been alone in the city before, I have met alot of my net friends, and what is even greater is that I live in a trailer because no one is cooky/dumb enough to stalk a guy in a metal box Lol

But anyways I can't wait to get legend of zelda twilight princess on Tuesday *(possibly but more than likely this week)* .... *(gigglesnort ^^)* .... oh wow, I think I might look pissed off in every picture I take, Weird...

Oh I got World of Warcraft too, I feel so special... oh me effin gee it is christmas! I forgot there for a second...

I am really so tired... I haven't slept for two days and I can only get on the computer after 11PM...

I am tired of chain letters... especially the ones that say you are cursed... (********!!!! GRRR!! I HATE CURSES) oh but wait... it is no regular curse (whew close one, almost burst a vessel) they say, that bloody mary is going to kill you, *tonight* at 12:00--Midnight, sorry if I am mistaken, but... it isn't TONIGHT anymore at 12, it is ******** morning, correct?

D: I hate reTARDS

bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bord and I finally made a typo so onto something else

happy birthday jesus!... or isn't that supposed to be easter? jesus has alot of birthdays... one with gifts... one with chocolate bunnies that hide eggs that go bad if you don't find them... what the ********?


Hold on I am going to go read up on easter...

No I am right, birthdays... one presents one bad eggs... hrm... anyways... lol... when I was 6 I ate these poisonus berries while on an easter egg hunt.. erm nevermind

Crap... I should have bought cocoa... apple cider tastes funky with milk D: Lol just kidding... but now I am curious... I might actually try it...

*shifty eyes*.... erm... brb

ack no, don't do it, now I have to finish this... I can't waste s**t... it is christmas... xD

omg coca cola to the rescue!

oh crap... what was I talking about?

oh! Bad eggs and presents, so anyways, um... I am atheist so I don't really care, but all of the religious holidays really freak me out I just like cheer and such

That is all. Happy holidays!

totally just finished the second draft of my new book today, alot of proofreading over and over, haha, but I finished the second draft today, so that is awesome.
Also, my cellphone number is 253 279 1032, call me if you need to talk, but only if I know you, k?


I don't really know what to say. I can't sleep, I am beginning to believe that people believe I am an idiot. It is really unnerving. Why do people lie? I don't know. There are so many things that I do not know... oh well. I suppose.

I am thinking of tearing apart my book and starting over from scratch.

Dodododo. So I saw my brother again after the longest time... (7years or so) and he was really cool, I don't know what he thinks of me though.

I'm still not even close to tired, and I can't think of anything else to say, so I am going to go lay down until I pass out.



Now I end.
Because today has been hell, hell enough to recap each of these dead memories for you. So let me ask you.
Is it easier to find a grain of salt in a desert
or a drop of fresh water in the ocean...
The answer is simple.
Is it not?

Maybe I will turn everything that I have into strength...

"Half a league, half a league,
Half a league onward,
All in the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred." - The battle -Eb
"I have told you, I hate Eb, right? Well, have I ever told you that I am Eb?" - MogMorou