scream Time to complain about how crappy my life is and how I hate everyone like some emo goth suicidal idiot! scream
I am sick and tired of being everyone's Barbie Doll. Okay so my hair is long. I know that but that does not mean you people at school can play with it. Okay I say I don't mind and I act like I don't mind. I do mind dammit! Quit playing with my F*ck*ng hair.
Okay so this next one is techically my fault. I'm your puppy dog. I'm tired of it. I follow you jerks around, I do your bidding and I act like a whiny girl. I basically put on a collar and you all have a leash and tug at it when I go in a direction you don't like. I'm sick and tired of it.
I cannot stand on my own to feet so I lean on you guys to support me and I do apologize for being a weakling. I mean sure you're all my friends we laugh and sh*t. Okay, we must take note on how Victoria puts on a mask because she has years of depression and anger stored up. Now do not yell at me because I know that I'm not the only one who friggen does it.
You all think I'm some happy go lucky idiot with no problems except the fact that I have a huge crush on Brandon and I don't know what to do about it because I wanna stay friends. Okay that is the third time I have said that and I'm sick and tired of that f*ck*ng line. Okay another one of my problems is that I am actually smart. surprised gasp! OMG you are!? Yes I am and I want you all to know that. Okay so I act dim witted, stupid, and I don't understand my math or english or any of those subject. Surprise, I do! I'm a smart healthy girl who just happens to put on a mask to not make other people worry about me!
You people worrying about me makes me feel guilty and I hate feeling guilty. Brittany I owe god knows how much money to her, Michelle is like....well...like can be emo and I understand her but then I snap at her so I releive stress on her also. Brandon is the funny idiot whom I also lay my stress on and yes Brittany, I lay the problems on you that I've already talked to Brandon and Michelle about. I don't hate you it's just that...you seem really naive and I apologize but you're happy and positive and optimistic it annoys me to no end, but you're still my friend because you're happiness makes me happy at times. Michelle is my emo friend whom I can be depressed with and understand eachother even if her emoness does annoy me to no end also, she's still my friend. Brandon is the funny idiot whom I sometimes hate with a passion, sometimes my friend, and sometimes crush. You also annoy me to no end with your jokes and incase you haven't notice some jokes actually hurt. No offense but Brittany and maybe Michelle know how much you hurt me and I'm sure you realize it.
Okay now I could be here all night complaining but that's just a little bit of my stored up stuff, that's a tiny fraction of NOW. Think about the THEN that iI have stored up inside this tiny bottle that has multiple cracks. When I cry in class, yea I cry and try to hold it in, when in reality I want to screm cry shout and cut myself. That was twice, just twice I have done that and my friends worried about me. Guilt trip.
gonk Okay I'm done being an angsty broody emo gotrh suicidal woman. Laterz.
-Vic gonk
 Your Missing Period · Sun Apr 01, 2007 @ 04:27am · 0 Comments |
