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[Title: Tattered Storybook - Yuvawrius] Yes, another fine, dramatic title to start another dramatic entry off... Which nobody will read! If i'm gonna kill time, then damn it, i'm gonna over-kill it. Yuvaw, Kulame, Orphious, Imakune, Aisho. All are significant personalities in here. And all have a true history in my real life. But when they're not physically romping about, terrorizing and romancing the unsuspecting masses of the world - they're inside, living a "storybook" life. Each one has a detailed story, I guess you could say fabricated, though to them i'm sure it's quite real. And the stories strike me as interesting. Go figure! So, i'm going to jot down a little bit about each one. At some point. Starting with Yuvaw, since he's oh-so special. And since he's been on my mind (OMG a pun) as of late. Now, how to start... - - - - - Yuvaw, Extigonian. Sub-branch of the Eftigonian race. His father - Orphious - is a pure Eftigonian, and makes his resentment of Yuvaw fairly clear. But this isn't about Orphious! Because Yuvaw is of the sub-branch, he lives a somewhat weaker and shorter lifespan than an Efti would. He looks more aged than Orphious, even though Orphious is obviously older than him. And for the past three years has been coming to the end of his life. This translates in literal terms as - Yuvaw is slowly dying off. I can feel it, strong as he is, he's fading off in this head. So, I understand why he lives each -real- waking moment in this real world as though it'll be the last he gets. Sad. Anyhoo, Efti/Exti are a cold-logical type of race. They accept everything that is, and don't try to fight it. The universe is the way it is, no sense trying to change it. Just exist with it. So, things such as Art - Religion - Science, just doesn't make sense to them. They have a knowing and understanding that it is something that's done, but they can't grasp it. It seems utterly pointless - and they frown on anyone who would spend their time on something so useless. This translates in literal terms to - Almost all personalities, live or dead, have thought on these lines. My 'Inner Universe" runs mainly on those beliefs. Myself not included. - - - - - Hmm... Actually, this isn't coming out right. Instead, i'll post a conversation held between me and a friend about this subject. All about this subject - and how Yuvaw links into it. It's long, be fore-warned. - - - - - AgarHeavenly: What do most evans think about earth AgarHeavenly: and humans AgarHeavenly: furhtermore, is earth the only one of its kind AgarHeavenly: are humans only bound to this planet yuvaw: Big questions, bucko! AgarHeavenly: lol AgarHeavenly: sorry AgarHeavenly: i'm just thinking outoud yuvaw: Alrighty, answer fest >_> yuvaw: Most eveans think Humanity/earth is almost an insult yuvaw: They don't like us, they don't like what we do, how we are yuvaw: They make jokes specifically about humans! yuvaw: "You stink like a human!" AgarHeavenly: we are the universes blondes AgarHeavenly: XD yuvaw: XD AgarHeavenly: are there any who respect us yuvaw: Respect? Hmm.... yuvaw: Closest you get is Blanques yuvaw: The "Sister planet" in eve AgarHeavenly: The lunarians onced lived in harmony with us yuvaw: Mhm, and now they're so few >__> AgarHeavenly: is that why? yuvaw: They gave humanity a shot! Eveans did AgarHeavenly: we are children to them yuvaw: Yes, yes yuvaw: But as much as they resent humanity yuvaw: They can't help but be interested yuvaw: Allow themselves to get confused by us AgarHeavenly: so they know as much about us as we do them AgarHeavenly: we dont even know about ourselves yuvaw: Well, hard to explain yuvaw: Some, -very few- have taken the time to try and learn about humans yuvaw: Why we do what we do, how yuvaw: Yuvaw being one AgarHeavenly: Yeah AgarHeavenly: He seemed, or acted like he had some respect yuvaw: And though they have learned/watched for a long time, and they know everything we do, they don't fully understand AgarHeavenly: Yuvaw... is different from the rest of his kind though. yuvaw: Yeah, Yuvaw does have different taste yuvaw: But not respect for us, I don't think yuvaw: More like... yuvaw: Letting us be level with him AgarHeavenly: can you relay messages to eve? yuvaw: Not respect, and not prejudice yuvaw: o_o Sure, specifically to one person? AgarHeavenly: yuvaw yuvaw: Can do~ AgarHeavenly: well AgarHeavenly: did he take a specific interest in us? AgarHeavenly: like AgarHeavenly: you me, jessie, jelly yuvaw: xP That's not a message! But I can answer AgarHeavenly: yeah AgarHeavenly: sorry yuvaw: Also hard to explain yuvaw: He did take interest in specifically us. Like a mental note was made. But it's like... yuvaw: If you see a fruit fly - that lives and dies within a day - you can take note of it if you want yuvaw: And for the rest of your life remember taking note of that one fruit fly AgarHeavenly: so AgarHeavenly: we are experiments AgarHeavenly: he had no relationship to us yuvaw: Nooo AgarHeavenly: on a emotional level yuvaw: Experiment implies he tested us @_@ AgarHeavenly: he stuck a stone on my forehead and gave me a gun that destroys souls AgarHeavenly: O.o; yuvaw: Alright, we might not form an emotional attatchment to that fruit fly AgarHeavenly: and constantly bit me yuvaw: But Yuvaw being inhuman could do that. He could look at the fruit fly - us - and while making that mental note to carry with him, keep any emotional attatchments he held to it yuvaw: Even if it did just live and die within a day yuvaw: And he let that fruit fly - us- be equal in his eyes to himself yuvaw: It's saying alot @_@ AgarHeavenly: I understand AgarHeavenly: earlier, I watched a pillbug climb to the top of my balcony rail... and I was going to flick it, but I saw the effort it took to get there and empythised with it yuvaw: Understand why all the other eftigonians would look at someone as being insane or insulting for letting themselves get attatched to a human? xP AgarHeavenly: instead I thought how and why and what drove it to do that yuvaw: Mhm, not alot of people look at the world that way, either in eve or earth yuvaw: I believe Yuvaw's logic is "Everything has a great, expanding history" that he wants to know AgarHeavenly: I think I saw something so special in yuvaw then, because we think a like AgarHeavenly: I wonder, if he saw the same thing in me yuvaw: o.o You never know. Think you saw that in the pillbug? AgarHeavenly: Is Belgroths stone, and the reaver... gifts? AgarHeavenly: I saw a story behind that pillbug, how it was different from the rest that live in rocks, it faced danger and went of the statis quo and climbed to the top, it had a goal or a dream to me AgarHeavenly: if I where to flick it, it's dreams would have been shattered and efforts in vein yuvaw: Yes, but that happens all the time. yuvaw: You could have just ignored it completely yuvaw: But instead of destroying, and instead of utterly ignoring it's existence, you...? AgarHeavenly: observed it AgarHeavenly: and let it be AgarHeavenly: let it play out it's own destiny AgarHeavenly: do bugs have souls? AgarHeavenly: O.o; yuvaw: o_o I think they have... uh... yuvaw: Like, the gaia AgarHeavenly: I always believed bugs and plants dont have souls AgarHeavenly: O.o; yuvaw: I think they're all just part of the big gaia spirit yuvaw: Which either means they're below our souls, or above o_o AgarHeavenly: I see. yuvaw: More connected with a larger thing than us alone yuvaw: But then the whole "Inner Universe" thing comes in and I get confused @_@ AgarHeavenly: lol AgarHeavenly: nobody will ever know all of these questions yuvaw: xP If you wanna be technical - based on what I know of the Efti way of logic - everyone already knows all these questions AgarHeavenly: well AgarHeavenly: you know what I mean yuvaw: Nobody will ever realize it~ AgarHeavenly: yea yuvaw: o_o We gots a theory that Imakune did realize it all yuvaw: He's hard to figure out... AgarHeavenly: do you think one of my abilities is seeing the potential or the personality of someone? yuvaw: Their what? AgarHeavenly: I am usually a great judge of character AgarHeavenly: just by observing someone yuvaw: So, can you see their... uh... AgarHeavenly: traits of their soul? yuvaw: There's a good word for it @_@ AgarHeavenly: ask yuvaw why he gave me the stone and reaver yuvaw: o_o Hmm yuvaw: Take another moment! yuvaw: If you had two things that could amplify the abilities of that pillbug, that would possibly make it able to talk to you, would you try it? AgarHeavenly: yea yuvaw: So, it's not gifts? AgarHeavenly: no AgarHeavenly: but if i where to do that AgarHeavenly: i would develope a relationship with that pillbug AgarHeavenly: sperating it from the rest AgarHeavenly: making it special yuvaw: Special to you, or special to all the others? AgarHeavenly: Special to me in the fact that, that pillbug was the one I found interesting because I saw empathy for it, special to the others in the fact that it now is more powerful AgarHeavenly: so yuvaw: Aye, both xP AgarHeavenly: did yuvow empathise with me? yuvaw: No, that would emply that he saw you as less yuvaw: He saw you/everyone else as equal AgarHeavenly: then why the enhancements yuvaw: Exactly yuvaw: Why you? yuvaw: You could have found any other pillbug to help up yuvaw: You could have found any other pillbug to lift up, far above that first pillbug in a single moment AgarHeavenly: with the reaver, I see a theory... perhaps, he saw that I couldn't destroy someone's soul, and entrusted me with such a device...as a keeper AgarHeavenly: That pillbug just stuck out yuvaw: So, maybe you just stuck out xP AgarHeavenly: oh yuvaw: Made yourself stick out yuvaw: And, maybe he didn't see that trait in you yuvaw: Maybe he didn't know you couldn't take a soul yuvaw: You couldn't know if that pillbug would take a soul AgarHeavenly: if i could read minds maybe yuvaw: xP If pillbugs have minds? AgarHeavenly: truwe yuvaw: >_> Note: Eftigonians, some of them suggest we don't have minds yuvaw: And when I see my sister, I believe they may be right AgarHeavenly: i feel the same way AgarHeavenly: some humans disgust me yuvaw: Mhm, that's why they find humanity to be almost an insult yuvaw: "You dare say they are equal to us?" yuvaw: Because that would imply that you're equal to that pillbug AgarHeavenly: Whos to say I'm not? yuvaw: Ah! Yuvaw's thinkin', there yuvaw: Because to Yuvaw, that pillbug and you -would- look very much the same AgarHeavenly: creatures AgarHeavenly: living and breathing yuvaw: All made of the same energies, in different portions AgarHeavenly: I guess... seeing it from a different special standpoint AgarHeavenly: Hes not human AgarHeavenly: I have to remeber this AgarHeavenly: he may not think the same as me yuvaw: He doesn't yuvaw: He can't AgarHeavenly: right yuvaw: But he tries AgarHeavenly: and thats admirable yuvaw: Like you could try to think the same way of that pillbug yuvaw: And you could give it two 'gifts' to make it easier xP AgarHeavenly: lol AgarHeavenly: but I dont see why the reaver and the stone AgarHeavenly: and I dont see why I stuck out to him yuvaw: He might see those two things as something different than we see them AgarHeavenly: the first night we met he attacked me yuvaw: xP And you almost flicked that pillbug yuvaw: So, why -did- he see you as different than a pillbug... AgarHeavenly: I dont know yuvaw: It's like choosing between a grasshopper and a cricket AgarHeavenly: its like... how you can think bugs are gross, but butterflies dont count, they are pretty AgarHeavenly: is that why yuvaw sent me moths? yuvaw: Could be o_o yuvaw: I'm sure he's got some grand reason explaining why he chose you, but it's beyond me @_@ AgarHeavenly: XD AgarHeavenly: how do you think he would answer AgarHeavenly: if I asked? AgarHeavenly: Why I stuck out from everyone else AgarHeavenly: I'm very curious yuvaw: I've no idea D': AgarHeavenly: ask 'em yuvaw: @_@ Will try, just a moment AgarHeavenly: ok yuvaw: Huh yuvaw: There's more to it, but the -very- basic answer is "Unlike the other, he responded back." AgarHeavenly: hmm AgarHeavenly: whos the other? yuvaw: Apparently if you wanted to put your finger down in front of a pillbug, in it's path, it would walk over it instinctively - not even considering/knowing that it was being helped up by the finger yuvaw: The other = everyone else, I assume o_o AgarHeavenly: I learned, puillbugs arent insects...they're crustacions yuvaw: XD AgarHeavenly: I see AgarHeavenly: So... because I relised he was there, instead of just flaking him off as imagination yuvaw: Anyhoo! While most of them would just walk over that help like that, obliviously - one of them would acknolege the help yuvaw: I don't know, it might be something else you did that he saw as acknowlegement yuvaw: Something you don't even realize you did o_o AgarHeavenly: yeah AgarHeavenly: I wonder... AgarHeavenly: Hmm AgarHeavenly: at anyrate AgarHeavenly: O.o; AgarHeavenly: I think we are just proving yuvaw is a good person yuvaw: xP 'Tis a deep rabit hole AgarHeavenly: XD AgarHeavenly: hesa big 'ol softy AgarHeavenly: -waits for a bite- AgarHeavenly: >.> yuvaw: XD Crazy AgarHeavenly: either that AgarHeavenly: or a geek AgarHeavenly: XD yuvaw: He's either brilliant beyond comprehension, or totally insane AgarHeavenly: Einstein said AgarHeavenly: Am I crazy, or are all the rest of them AgarHeavenly: perhaps... yuvaw is sane, and the rest of them are crazy yuvaw: o_o Could be yuvaw: He seems to think that way yuvaw: Or, he lives as though he thinks that way AgarHeavenly: who knows AgarHeavenly: he could think the same of me yuvaw: He completely ignores the 'rules' of the rest of the races AgarHeavenly: would yuvaw be safe to bring to earth? yuvaw: If he goes ballistic, he could wipe everything out AgarHeavenly: I remeber a conversation with him, he was so interested in our technologies, even something as simple as a sword AgarHeavenly: he was facinated yuvaw: Mhm AgarHeavenly: like I'm facinated with the powers and spirituality of them yuvaw: Something simple to them is interesting to us AgarHeavenly: what triggers a ballistic rage? yuvaw: Hard to say, could be anything at all yuvaw: A nudge on the shoulder, or a direct slap in the face AgarHeavenly: x.o AgarHeavenly: what if he jsut visited yuvaw: Kinda like saying, if you tripped, you could kick over an ant hill AgarHeavenly: i showed him some suff AgarHeavenly: then he went on his way AgarHeavenly: think he would be interested? AgarHeavenly: like a vacation AgarHeavenly: or feild trip yuvaw: Well, apparently he's been here before AgarHeavenly: when? yuvaw: Way back when yuvaw: Hm, few thousand years ago? AgarHeavenly: wow yuvaw: He came with the other eftis? AgarHeavenly: I see yuvaw: o_o You remember? AgarHeavenly: no yuvaw: D': AgarHeavenly: but AgarHeavenly: its so different now yuvaw: Mhm AgarHeavenly: we change faster than they could even blink yuvaw: xP Indeed AgarHeavenly: to him AgarHeavenly: a year for us is a milisecond yuvaw: I think they feel time the same way we do yuvaw: Just that it doesn't weigh so much on them AgarHeavenly: well AgarHeavenly: they live longer AgarHeavenly: I'm sure they adapted to longer life yuvaw: xP yuvaw: But even if you lived for like only thirty years AgarHeavenly: how long does a efti live? yuvaw: and you saw a pillbug for one day of that yuvaw: you'd still feel that one day as you do now AgarHeavenly: yeah yuvaw: Supposedly they live for as long as a sun does AgarHeavenly: wow AgarHeavenly: O.o; AgarHeavenly: thats long AgarHeavenly: maybe they are true celestial beeings yuvaw: But that's only if they die of old age yuvaw: They are born of the universe, and hold the nova energy in them yuvaw: But they're called the "Cancer of the universe" AgarHeavenly: thats why his power is like magma and heat AgarHeavenly: i can see why AgarHeavenly: to otheres they seem violent and unstable AgarHeavenly: powerfull and arrogant yuvaw: They bring death to so much yuvaw: They take from the universe around them AgarHeavenly: Why? yuvaw: They can't help it AgarHeavenly: I know that AgarHeavenly: but why? yuvaw: o_o Evolution, basically AgarHeavenly: just a curse yuvaw: The whole cosmic energies just flows in them yuvaw: And converts to death AgarHeavenly: so... AgarHeavenly: if he where to come to earth AgarHeavenly: and be near me AgarHeavenly: I could just die from his presence yuvaw: If he were to stop paying attention for a bit yuvaw: Then he could sap the energy out of everything in his path yuvaw: He's said it before - Everything here is so deilcate yuvaw: But then, he doesn't just drop his attention easily xP yuvaw: He doesn't have to sleep or anything -at all- AgarHeavenly: efti + add = DOOM yuvaw: And he has a great capasity AgarHeavenly: Well AgarHeavenly: he's tough yuvaw: But! yuvaw: He could replace everything he takes AgarHeavenly: hmm yuvaw: They all can @_@ Just apparently something about what happens to what they replace is supposed to be death AgarHeavenly: So.. AgarHeavenly: they are like cars AgarHeavenly: they burn fuel AgarHeavenly: and give off pollution AgarHeavenly: O.o; AgarHeavenly: can't you change their motor? yuvaw: xP yuvaw: They burn fule, and give back fule - but the fule they give back is different somehow yuvaw: Like, it doesn't burn AgarHeavenly: entropy yuvaw: Or something, I don't get it AgarHeavenly: all energy is converted to heat AgarHeavenly: heat is the only unusable form of unergy AgarHeavenly: it's also the final form of energy AgarHeavenly: all energy turns to heat, the end of the universe is when all energy is used yuvaw: Mhm, Eftigonians are burnin' hot AgarHeavenly: They are giant entropy generators yuvaw: They produce such intense heat within themselves yuvaw: Cold does -absolutely nothing- to them yuvaw: But if you hold a match to them, they do get hurt, it burns them AgarHeavenly: yeah AgarHeavenly: hmm yuvaw: Fire's their weakness o_o AgarHeavenly: Ultrahot blooded AgarHeavenly: thats good to know AgarHeavenly: ^.- yuvaw: xP AgarHeavenly: so a nuclear missile would do damage AgarHeavenly: thats some intence fire yuvaw: As far as burning them, yes AgarHeavenly: radiation probly does nothing to them AgarHeavenly: XD AgarHeavenly: they probably make radiation yuvaw: Nope xP AgarHeavenly: I can see why they are called the cancer of the universe... because they are basically spells of energy burning to nuthing AgarHeavenly: but AgarHeavenly: that is probably their purpose AgarHeavenly: So, are they the highest on the food chain yuvaw: Yeppo~ AgarHeavenly: So... AgarHeavenly: like yuvaw: o.o AgarHeavenly: what about other people we know AgarHeavenly: why did some of them take interest in us AgarHeavenly: same as yuvaw? yuvaw: Name someone? @_@ AgarHeavenly: Yuvaw is practically a god compared to us AgarHeavenly: Cathrine yuvaw: Hmm AgarHeavenly: the only person I can think of right now yuvaw: I don't think cathrine took interest so much yuvaw: Just acted AgarHeavenly: and her stalker sister AgarHeavenly: ohh AgarHeavenly: man oh man AgarHeavenly: So it would take a lot to befreind a evean AgarHeavenly: beeing human yuvaw: You'd have to really awaken somethin' in yourself @_@ yuvaw: To reach out to an evean, and have them actually reach back AgarHeavenly: like the heath AgarHeavenly: XD AgarHeavenly: I dont even know how powerfull my heath is AgarHeavenly: For all I know it's a superconducter for divine energy, or it's a measly little beam of light I can weild yuvaw: xP yuvaw: Well, if it's made to take out eftigonians yuvaw: Should be pretty high up there AgarHeavenly: but if I have to go up agasint eftis, I hope its number 1 AgarHeavenly: yeah AgarHeavenly: XD yuvaw: xP AgarHeavenly: whats the second strongest beeing AgarHeavenly: or the anti-ef AgarHeavenly: could that be humans? yuvaw: o.o Aside from them? AgarHeavenly: are we the anti-biotic of the universe? yuvaw: Something like that AgarHeavenly: like a pill, dissolving AgarHeavenly: in the vat of time! AgarHeavenly: O.o; yuvaw: Take out the ol' cancer xP AgarHeavenly: if that really is our destiny AgarHeavenly: it's a shame AgarHeavenly: because, I hate to deny life yuvaw: But apparently Eftigonians are already dead AgarHeavenly: eh? AgarHeavenly: Zombies? yuvaw: All energy that goes to them is already damned, it's a dead end yuvaw: No sleeping, no eating, no heartbeats, no breathing AgarHeavenly: like a cirus AgarHeavenly: virus* yuvaw: They just exist, their bodies live and burn with energy, but they... blah AgarHeavenly: but they think AgarHeavenly: O.o; AgarHeavenly: they have souls right? yuvaw: That's a really tricky question - they don't even know AgarHeavenly: I see... AgarHeavenly: "I think, therefore I am" yuvaw: But that's it yuvaw: They look like they think, right? yuvaw: But apparently their 'thinking' is just instictive actions AgarHeavenly: maybe yuvaw: As complex as it may be AgarHeavenly: Who knows yuvaw: Explains why they can never understand religeon, or art AgarHeavenly: true yuvaw: even though they - yuvaw - tries yuvaw: Which is utterly sad xP AgarHeavenly: maybe... AgarHeavenly: yuvaw wants to be alive yuvaw: u_u Indeed AgarHeavenly: hes searching for a cure for himself AgarHeavenly: what would happen if you where to kickstart a efti heart AgarHeavenly: make them breath yuvaw: o_o Their hearts to beat sometimes yuvaw: Depends on certain things yuvaw: Which differ from efti to efti yuvaw: I forget what makes yuvaw's hearts beat yuvaw: They breath on instinct to stir up their spores when they need to AgarHeavenly: bbut I mean to breath AgarHeavenly: I breath air yuvaw: Like, really breath? AgarHeavenly: like we do AgarHeavenly: to make them live yuvaw: I don't know o_o AgarHeavenly: Has anyone made a efti live yuvaw: Not that I know of yuvaw: Most eveans don't try things like that yuvaw: The universe is the way it is - don't try to change it yuvaw: Science and technology don't make sense yuvaw: Yuvaw of course refuses to accept that AgarHeavenly: O.o; AgarHeavenly: you know AgarHeavenly: I think I figured yuvaw out yuvaw: o____o AgarHeavenly: something jsut clicked yuvaw: You'll have to clue me in later! AgarHeavenly: way down in me yuvaw: I gotta go @_@ AgarHeavenly: bah AgarHeavenly: loser AgarHeavenly: XD yuvaw: xP AgarHeavenly: I should sleep too yuvaw: Ileavenow! AgarHeavenly: I think tonight was good progress AgarHeavenly: see yah - - - - - Of course, you don't have to believe any of this. :'3 There's -a lot- more to it, but I doubt anyone outside my tight little circle would take the time to learn it all. And, i'm probably bullshitting all this, for all you fine folks know, right? @__@; Bah well. In any case, now we know a little more about why Yuvaw is the way he is. And the utterly sad fact to him, is that no matter how hard he tries to learn the whole of Art, Science, Religion - he just never will fully understand it. Despite how truly hard he tries. And while i'm sure he knows that very fact, he still continues to try. Hodaiga · Thu Mar 22, 2007 @ 12:59am · 0 Comments


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