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After having three girls, and now being back with another- there are people in this world that make me wonder if I know what they really want. Or even more so if they know what they want. After it comes to the final thread and they can have only one person stand by them, who would they choose? Who would he choose? He says he wants me and that he thinks he loves me, when i know I love him and i knowi want him. But how can i allow one person, even one i love so dearly, hold my happiness like a thread and pair of scissors? And even more so- Why do I let him? Even when I know he's not totally commited and when i know he still loves her. Still dreams about her. Still wants her. Even after everything they've been through? I just dont know if I'll be everything he wants...or needs...