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Hello all if ur reading this well then u oviosly eather
A. a friend
B. someone looking to be entertained
C. some 40 year old man looking for a victom
anyways
...today has bin okay i guess
dads yelled and hit....
sisters got pissed
dad took all my money
i was saving to get out of this hell hole
but hey lifes a b***h right?
im looking for an excape
but is there one....
today i wrote a poem all share it with you


Tittle: I woke up today......

i woke up today
thinking i was okay
glace down to notice my sleeve
covered in blood
and now covered in tears
once again
i took back my promise
im never going to be okay
never find comfort in anything else
i had no guilt until you
you're my only reason for staying in this hell
kill me, just kill me!
i need to get out
i have no more room to tell the story
i have put upon my wrist
im sorry

......comment it its how life is
urs may be diffrent
or the same....
who the hell knows?
who the hell cares?
i care for friends.....
otherwise u mean nothing to me...
i have some amazing friends on here
i've never met them...
but there amazing to me...
theres this one....
who saved my life i thank her....
how do u repay someone
that saves ur life?
i dont have a clue.....
on the positive side.....
my aunt is takeing me for a week.....
she lives in florida....
if i can get on i will...if not im srry.....
for thous who know me and care for me
any promises i've made all keep them
even if its hard....

well this is my log all add my poems regulary....
untill next time

Zach johnson june 6th 1:31pm

Okay so this is about who i am and my life.
My name is zachary dale johnson, zach for short
im 13 turning 14 august 24th
i cant spell very well...lol deal with it
anyways....on to my life
okay everything was peachy untill about 11 divorce.....
some no what im talking about some dont
so my perants after 20 years of marrige split..
mom(lisa johnson madeden runyan) moves out i go with her....
Dad(monte johnson) gets up set...hates life starts drinking
mom gets remarried..to a good guy(at the time) named mark clephane
he's bin married 5 times i ahev my worries...but hey he seems okay
so me and my sister and my mom move in with him and his 3 kids
everythings great untill....5 months in to the marrige....
mom gets cancer....lung cancer......
she was amazing person i still dont understand why it had to be her...
first month she says what every person says were gonna kick it in the a**....
well....it moved to her kidneys.......
then to her brain.....
they dont tell us they say
its shrinking
so they go to soulth caralina to "celabrate" actaully to make us good bye videos...
3 miles from soulth caralina she has a seizure....
it takes away her speech and her entier right side movment....
know we can no longer give her treatment...
so shes stuck in bed.....
if i as much as much as touch her arm she has a seizure....
so she lays there with a morphine pump connect and on all the time
so...things get worst she no longer knows who i am....
id go in the room and say hey mom....
and she'd look at me confussed.....
she got some speech back...
she would oweas lay there and say how much she missed me and my sister...
when we were in the room talking to her...
finally after 8 months of suffering she passed away
....so i move in with my dad...have to...
me and him dont quite get along at this point...
so im expecting to get osme of my moms stuff right?
mark my ******** step dad decieds that we dont deserve such precios things
so at this point being 13 i have nothing of my moms
other then a picture she drew...
so this is my life....
some say its teribble id say its bad....
who knows.....
u judge it...

Zach johnson june 5th 07 6:54pm