• I always thought that i was unbreakable, untouchable, and untouched. Boy was i wrong. I lived in a very small town in the northern region of Alabama, its not real big at all. i graduated with an amazing class of about 90. It was hard to get an exact number. We had a few that were always on the borderline of failing, but anyways. Everyone knew everyone and if you didnt grow up with them, they watched you grow up. There is nothing that does not get around in this town. In this town, im nothing more than a blue collared worker, for now. I live in GreenFort, it just sounds like a town in the middle of no where, well.... it kinda is. Dont get me wrong, Im 18 and i just graduated this past year but i want into the Medical Field. I want to become a paramedic. Its not a high paying job or one of those jobs that your parents want you to have. Its just what i want to do. I like to help people and thats all there is to it. I just need to get a little money behind me before I go to college. But fate had something else lined up for me.




    Chapter 1

    My name is Chris. and i am average physically. I might be a little shorter than the others but not by much. I have Brown hair that goes down to the bottom of my cheeks. I have a skinny physique but yet it is all muscle. and its always covered in black clothes. I am different at heart and its hard to explain. im not your normal person who spends their whole life trying to fit in. I accept what i am, and i live with it. But i also feel stronger at heart than everyone that is around me.and this is my story

    "Chris, Chris HEY!!!!! you have some company"my mom said. By the way, i am still living in my moms house. All of my friends moved off and left me. its just something you expect after you graduate. There is nothing in GreenFort. You are somewhat forced to move out of here but, i didnt have the money or the plans to do it. So, i have been in a really low state. After all i have drifted away from the guys who i grew up with. "Chris, are you coming?"mom said again. "Yes, i will be down in a second". so I put a dirty shirt on and i went down the stairs and into the living room. On the couch sat my Leppy, my neighbor, and Christine, lets just call her an old crush that i never told. Leppy is not his real name, its a nickname. He has always been the shortest out of all his friends and someone made the comment that he looked like a Lepreacahn in his green shirt. The name stuck. He is about the only friend i have left around here. You see, he has not graduated yet. He is 16, and in a way like me. We were both different in our own way, and we dont care what the others thought about us. They could accept us for what we were or they could leave us alone. He just didnt fit in with most people and girls never took an interest in him, and then there was me. I love the color black and always wore it, and i always had a problem talking to girls. i could but i never could pick the right words. "So, What are you up too, Lep? and good god what did you do to your hair?" i said. Leppy had very curly and red hair before." Its Christine's doings, she wanted to be creative with someone's hair. So.... i told her she could do my hair!" Leppy said. "i didn't do that much, i just dyed it black and Straightened it!"Christine said. She had not changed much since the last time that i saw her. Like i said, you grow up with everyone. She is 17 and i had not seen her in 10 years. I had a crush on her when i was 7 but i never told her. Then her parents decided a divorce would be the best thing for their family, and she moved away from me.She still stunned me. i remember why i had a crush on her, all to well. I just liked everything about her. and i still felt attached to her, just somehow. "Oh and i wanted to give you this movie back" Leppy said " you can stay seated Christine, we will be back in a second. and believe me, you dont want to see Chris's room right now!" Leppy said. There nothing bad about my room, it was just a little messy at the moment. So me and leppy walked up the stairs and down the hall to my room. "So Lep did you find yourself a girlfriend?" I said. i was hoping he would say no and that i would have a chance to ask Christine out. I remembered that the fair was only two weeks away. "No, i dont have a thing for Christine, and neither does anyone else"Leppy said. "Dont look so dumbfounded, did you forget that i grew up with you? i know why you asked me that. and i think you should ask her to go on a date." Leppy said. Damn, he was good at reading me and that always got me. I put the movie up and we went down stairs again. We sat down. Leppy and Christine sat on opposite sides of the couch and i sat one the love seat, with my feet crossed and laying on the arm of the chair. There was an awkward silence and i wanted to break it. I wanted to ask her so bad but i couldnt speak. "Well i guess we must be going. I have to be home soon. I have some things that i need to have done before Monday"Christine said. I had so much running through my mind. Come on Chris this is your last chance, you are screwing up, you are as low as you can get so try to get up, come one Chris, you maynever see her again."Wait, Christine I have something that i want to ask you. Would you um... want to go to the fair with me? its two weeks from now and i would love to catch up with you." I said while i choked out the words."Sure, here is my number. call me sometime so that we can figure everything out." Christine said. I walked them out and went back to my room and layed on my bed. If nothing else, I was able to look up and be happy again. Even if it was for a minute, then i remembered that it was Sunday and i had to go to work tomorrow. Urggg.... I slammed a pillow on my face and took a nap. i tried to enjoy the last couple of hours of my freedom before i sold 40 hours of my life to my job.


    Part 2




    "So what did you do last night?"Leppy said. We were playing a game at his house, after i got off of work and he came home from school. I didnt care much about the game, but i liked to be around just to talk. " Not much, i didnt do much after you left. I tried to sleep and that was about it" I told him. It was complicated, as much as i wanted to sleep i couldnt. i wats constantly thinking about her and i could not stop. I didnt want things to go the wrong way when the my date came around. "Damn, you beat me again" Leppy said. I didnt noticed i was thining about her again i had no idea i was playing the game. I didnt show any mercy on him either. i always went easy on him no matter what it was. He always took things to heart. but he was ok this time. " How do you always do that, no matter what i alway try its never good enough."Leppy said. " You just suck" i was kidding around and he knew it " anyways, i have to go home and get some things done"and i went home.

    I tried to call christine but i only got her voicemail."Hey, Christine i was just calling to if you still wanted to go to the fair, and if so when do you want to go? I dont do this a whole lot so um.... i guess i will need you to bear with me. I will get better if there is a second date. Maybe im just getting ahead of mysel-"BEEP. That sucks i was still talking and i rambled on took to long on the message. Idiot!!. And i feel onto my bed and i tried sleeping. for surely she would be home right now. it was around 9 at night. so i guess she didnt feel like talking or maybe she didnt want to talk to me at all. I just shook off the last idea. Right about the time i was going to sleep, which was an hour later, the phone rang. "Um Hello. oh, okay, then i will see you there, then i will let you go. Bye" She called to tell me she had been busy and left her phone in her car. and that she was looking forward to next saturaday. Now i could sleep, i was in a better mood than the night before.





    Part 3

    Well today is the day. It was 5 in the afternoon and it was getting colder as the sun went down and I have looked forward and dreaded this day for quite a while. My mind has been exausted on the thoughts of what i should say and what i should do. i just want everything to be perfect. Now im sitting in my Jeep, right behind her car in the drive way at her mothers house. My legs felt so heavy but i was able to get out of the car. Even though it was a different house, everything about it seemed the same as where she used to live. Before i made it up the steps she had opened the door and met me on the front porch. She looked great and there was nothing out of place. To me she was perfect. Her head would fit perfectly into my chest and she had jet black hair that shined. she seemed so fragile, like i could break her if i said the wrong thing. "So, are you ready to go?" i asked. "Sure, just let me tell my mom and we can go"she said. i waited outside. I knew her mom but something about me wanting to date her daughter changed everything to me. I was a nervous wreck without the help of meeting another side of her mom.Well an hour away from her house, we made it to the fair. and it was ungodly crowded. You had to wait forever to get on a ride. and i had to have her home before 11. it took half an hour in line to get to one ride. I was so mad, I could not see how she could have a good time when there was so much waiting, but we caught up on the past ten years. I didnt know how bad things had gotten for her but i seen things getting better for her too. This was a fresh start for her and she wanted me to help. We found out that we had a lot of things that were in common after so long. Then i seen her shiver, she didnt bring a coat and i hardly ever wore one myself. i loved the cold weather and i loved to fight it. "Come on, i know that there is not a coat in my car but maybe we can find one in one of these stands. I dont want you to be cold especially if you are still wanting to ride" I said this before i thought about anything else. I was right though. We found a Fall Havest hoodie. "i will pay you back for this"she said. 'No you wont, im not worried about the money, I want you to be warm and happy. So atleast i knew i had one of the things on my to-do list done. After that we walked around the fairgrounds just trying to keep up conversation until we reached the food court. Just as soon as we sat down to devour a funnel cake i noticed the time."Oh no! I have to get you home in 20 minutes, I dont need you to get in trouble on my first date with you" I had completely lost all track of time and now we had to rush to the Jeep."I will need you to buckle up, we may be a little late but i dont want it to be by much" I said."Do you honestly think you can scare me? Just dont put me into a ditch. I can drive way faster than you can in this thing, Just make sure we are safe, and i dont care if im late, She will understand"she said quickly. I got her home ten after eleven. I felt so bad but yet i had an awesome time too.And i knew as we sat in the car in her driveway it was coming to an end. "Well i guess i will see you later then, and i hope you had a good time," i said." I did have a good time and thanks for the Hoodie." then she shut my door. Its not that i expected anything on the first date but yet it would have seemed like a perfect night with a kiss. Regardless of that, this was the best night i have had in a very long time.







    Part 4

    I dont know why it did but me being at work, and her being at school always bugged me. I guess it was because a year ago i was in that school and i knew what went through the minds of every guy in there. Its not that i didnt trust her, it was well... , i didnt trust the wrong people in that school to stay away. I dont know why i it bothered me and i knew it shouldnt. Afterall i had only went on one date with her. well i guess i do know my reason. i didnt want to lose my chance of being with her to someone else, and lets face it, that someone else could have easily been in the school. I thought me and Christine was getting close. we were all the time at each others house and i had gotten comfortable with her mom. My only problem was that i kept turning down Leppy to be with Christine. I had always said that there was nothing that would come between me and him and there i was doing it. We still done things together, it just wasnt like it used to be. Everything i did, meant that i would have to tell the other one no. they didnt have much to do with each other anymore. i never thought to ask why. With us living in the small town that we did, i knew that the story would get around to me sometime. but it never did. I just knew that my normal routine seemed to always hurt one of them. This went on for a few months, until winter had really set in and it had gotten very cold.